Cass county council on aging

Hello! I’m hoping to get some basic info and/or links to learn about how to help my parents plan for their next stages in life.
They are both around 80, living independently and in basically good health. They’ve been in a home in Illinois for more than 40 years, but have hinted that they are finally thinking about downsizing. My wife and I have already offered to have them stay with us, but they might prefer to rent an apartment near us for a while at first.
They have a few basic assets and income (their home, some regular stock and some in a 401k, a small pension, social security, and maybe a few other odds and ends) but I can’t imagine it would come out to more than 300k - they have written their will to divide whatever they have between my sister and I. My sister, in Missouri, and I, in Illinois with my parents, have a basically good relationship and are in basically good financial situations for our own families. We are trying to understand what to do in order for us all to enjoy whatever time we have left, and to plan ahead for possible difficulties so that they don’t sour anything.
In particular, I would like to learn about aid and support in Illinois for extended at-home or nursing home care. This is definitely an area where my parents are not super-ready financially, and it would be a challenge for my sister and I to provide for them. This is, financially, the thing I worry about most as my parents age. They would like to leave something for us, but what are their options if they end up needing care later on?
What else am I not thinking of that I should be considering?

Hi, I'm a 17 yr old who just graduated high school. I worked a job all year long, and I currently have 7.5k in my bank account. This amount is a culmination of my earned money and about 700 of it is graduation money. Along with this, I have almost 2k in cash as a graduation gift. Despite this, every time I work up the courage to spend on myself, I get scared. I think I know why: my parents are the type who don't throw their kids out at 18, and are constantly supporting my older brother while in college and always want him to return home and send him back with food. I know they're very supportive of taking care of their family, except for one factor about me: I'm queer.
I'm very scared of my family discovering this and end up cutting ties with me. And then, next thing I know, I'm thrust out on my own, and if I spend all my money now, I won't have enough to take care of myself if this happens. I'm caught between wanting to enjoy life, but also worried that I'll be hit by issues in the future that I won't be able to account for. This stress has led to me searching for a 2nd job again. I know I have a lot more money saved up than most people my age, but how do I manage this anxiety methodically so that I can still get what I want --- as I'm very much into fashion and like to make and purchase items to curate outfits --- but also have a way to be sure I'm set for the future when I go off to college if anything happens.

I was watching a video which contained a clip of a man who was promoting the “militant church”. Inserted into the clip was a reference to Digitatis Humanae Institute (DHI). After some digging, I discovered that the man in the video was Steve Bannon, an M.B.A graduate of Georgetown University, and that DHI, which features the full video of Bannon on their media page, is a Catholic think tank. The first article on DHI’s home page is about Cardinal Renato Raffaele Martino, former apostolic nuncio to the United Nations and President of the Pontifical Council of Justice and Peace under John Paul II. DHI’s offices in Italy and Belgium are listed here on their contacts page.
In case there was any doubt, the gentleman in question is the same Steve Bannon who was the former head of Breitbart News Network and one-time CEO of Trump’s presidential campaign. He was eventually indicted for money laundering, fraud, and conspiracy; crimes he committed through the “We Build the Wall” scheme, here and here. Bannon also funded DHI, which was evicted from the Italian monastery, Certosa di Trisulti, after the head of the institute, Benjamin Harnwell, was cited for lease violations.
Trump’s involvement with Bannon makes sense, however. In 2016, just prior to his election to the presidency, Trump (along with Hillary Clinton) attended the Alfred E. Smith Dinner, an annual event thrown by the Alfred E. Smith Memorial Foundation, which was founded in 1946 by Cardinal Francis Spellman and is hosted by the sitting Cardinal of New York, currently, Timothy Dolan. During his dinner speech, Trump admitted that he had been attending that event with his father since he was a young man.
The introductions, which begin at 43:30, are literally a who’s who in the pope’s NWO. One-by-one, special attendants are introduced according to their dignitary titles, names, and the high positions they hold in governments, foundations, organizations, corporations, etc. and Dolan is seated, front and center stage, flanked by Trump and Clinton.
What all of these connections, events, and organizations amount to is an invasion and takeover of the United States by a foreign entity, namely, the papacy, its Jesuits, and their agents. In his booklet, The Great Silence Conspiracy, Andrew Sinclair explains the process Rome uses to accomplish its goals. He makes a distinction between totalitarianism and authoritarianism—terms that many in the truth community tend to use interchangeably—as separate stages in the process. According to Sinclair, totalitarianism is the first stage. It is achieved by the total, (hence its name), infiltration and takeover of every key position within the institutions of a target nation. The second stage, authoritarianism, is Rome’s use of these key positions to wield absolute authority, manifested as fascism, over the people of that nation.
This is the reason we see the Militant Church Movement spreading throughout the United States and gaining momentum. All of our institutions have been infiltrated and taken over by Rome, thus, we have passed the totalitarian stage and are entering the stage of authoritarianism, in which Rome, unbridled by checks and balances and unhindered by opposition, will begin to exercise its power and authority to its fullest capability.
The purpose of the Militant Church Movement is to cement the union of Church and State by exciting in our people a false sense of righteousness, born not of the Holy Spirit working in us to repent of our sins, but based on exaggerated nationalist sentiments. This has been made possible because we have been removed from our biblical roots, degraded and demoralized, fractured into innumerable camps against false enemies, worn out by the injustices of Roman law, and incessantly beaten by the Jesuits’ rod of Social Justice.
Weary of being buffeted and of the chaos our nation is in, our people are ripe to embrace Rome’s solution of ridding us of the factions which Rome blames for causing our misery. This final stage, by which the enemies of the papacy are eliminated, is the very purpose for which modern Fascism was developed. The track record of Fascism over the last century has taught us this is so. But we have forgotten its most valuable lessons and are once again returning to that dark age in our world’s history in which we almost witnessed the complete resurrection of the Holy Roman Empire throughout Europe. And the same people, Jews and Protestants, which have been targeted by the Church of Rome throughout the long and bloody history of that organization, will be the targets of her wrath in our day.

Hello. I am a YouTube creator and a writer known as Equestria Guy. I have a YouTube channel dedicated mostly to video essays about movies, shows, mostly animation. I am preparing a special video for Pride Month (which starts June 1st). The video is going to be called “How LGBTQ+ Representation Helps People''. I want to collect real stories from real people. How representation in modern media (cartoons, movies, shows, video games, etc.) helped you to come in terms with your sexuality and accept yourself. How LGBTQ+ characters influenced, inspired, positively affected you.
You can send me a message here, on Reddit. Or you can write to me on Instragram, TikTok, whichever option is preferable to you. I want you to share your story with me. You can share your name, city where you live, age, but that’s not mandatory. You can just share your nickname on social media and that's all right.
Send me your sincere story. You can just send a wall of text and I will voice it myself, or you can record your story yourself and I will include it in my video. Again, whichever option is best for you.
You can send your photograph or avatar in social media, or nothing, that's also fine.
My goal is to show why representation matters. How it helps people to find themselves. LGBTQ+ is still one of the most oppressed groups in the world, unfortunately. You deserve your voices to be heard.
If you have social media accounts, I can share links, so if my video, hopefully, gets popular, you might benefit by gaining more subscribers and followers.
If you want to participate, please, don’t hesitate to hit me up.
Sincerely yours,
Equestria Guy

I'm in my late 30s, from a country where it's normal having your first baby at my age. I got pregnant for the first time and I should be around 8 weeks now. It was definitely unplanned as we live in different countries, the chances were very slim considered our ages, yet it happened.
I come from a very small family, never really held a baby in my whole life. I not only know very little about motherhood and babies, but I see it as something a bit miserable. It just doesn't appeal me. It never did. The idea of sacrificing sleep and life choices, of not being able to do many things because of a child, makes me so sad.
At the same time, I feel I am too old to feel "not ready". It's now or never. I know I could regret an abortion. I know that I am a worrier. I know I tend to see the negative side of things. I musn't be this horrible if all other women love the idea!
Over the last few years I had been entertaining the fantasy of starting a family. I thought about it because I lived a very lonely life for many years, and because my mother had an early menopause at age 43, making me feel pressured. I sometimes think a kid would have little impact - I work from home, I spend weekends doing chores. It's not like I live this crazy life. I thought it could be fun and normal. that is what humans are meant to do. That is time for me to grow up.
But then I think about the "24 hour job". Giving birth surrounded by strangers. Being left alone in a hospital with this little demanding stranger. Seeing my body change and become unattractive. Mess around the house. My kid destryoing my things. Noise all the time. Freaking Peppa Pig. Becoming like all mums who only talk about their child. Having to deal with teenage problems. Sacrificing money, not going on holidays anymore. No more decent sex because who has time and privacy for that? And what if my child grows to be a horrible person?
My partner is an amazing man, willing to leave everything, including his country and his job, to raise a child with me. He can't wait to have one. And when he talks to me about it, he makes me feel supported and as if it will be easy. So I think to myself, that yes, we'll start a family.
But then, when I'm alone at night, I panic and can't sleep. I feel ashamed and guilty and confused about my feelings. I wish I had more time to make a decision, but I found out late about being pregnant and I should take a very fast decision. The idea of an abortion makes me feel bad.
I so much want to see motherhood as life goals and not as a horrible chore. If you can say anything to convince me that becoming a mum is the best and that I'm just being dramatic, I'd be so grateful.

Nile Delta, Egypt. September 25, 1951:

In September 1951 an Egyptian killed seven people in the Nile Delta, Egypt, after a man cut his son's throat. The boy had thrown a stone at a passing camel carrying the village mayor, and blinded the animal in one eye. The son of the mayor swore to kill him for this, making a "divorce oath", meaning that he would have to leave his wife, if he did not fulfill it.
When the father of the boy offered to buy the camel, the mayor's son refused, whereupon he consulted the village sheikh and religious leader. They advised that the oath could be fulfilled by drawing the dull edge of a knife across the boy's throat, and that the father should buy the injured animal.
Both parties agreed to the proposal, which was supposed to be put into practice at a village council. When the boy presented his throat to the mayor's son the latter initially applied the knife's dull edge, but when drawing it across reversed the blade and severed the boy's jugular vein. Thereupon the father, who had been aroused by his wife's supicions, drew a pistol and shot dead the murderer of his son, the mayor, the village sheikh, and four other people in the crowd, before he was subdued.

Northern Yemen. October 15, 1997:

On October 15, 1997 a Yemeni killed seven people in northern Yemen after a man cut his son's throat. The 9-year-old boy had blinded a cow by throwing a stone at its eye, and the owner of the animal had vowed to kill him for this, but after mediation by the other tribesmen agreed to only frighten him by holding a dagger under his chin. However, he changed his mind and killed the boy in front of the mediators and his father, wherupon the latter opened fire with a rifle at the people around him, fatally hitting the murderer of his son and six others.

Why hello! Brief, silly, and attention grabbing title set to the side I'm a 37 year old man-person hailing from the United States. I enjoy both deep and shallow discussions, serious and silly topics, being a dork, interacting with other dorks, and a whole host of other things! If we click, that’s awesome! If we don’t, that’s ok too! :)
Some of my interests include, but are not limited to: impromptu and unsolicited philosophizing, friendly debate, martial arts, writing, books and the reading of them (as well as other things that can be read), video games, movies, tv shows and the watching of them (and other things that can be watched, like TED talks), the lovely outdoors, animals, psychology, and much more. I will tease you (in a playful and good-hearted manner, if you're comfortable with that) listen to your pains and joys, tell you that you’re wrong about something if you are in fact wrong about it (and am ok with being told that I am wrong something if I am in fact wrong about it) and am willing to discuss damn near anything. I’m also a college student working on a degree in psychology, so schoolwork or work-work commiseration can be found here.
So, why not say hello if anything above interests you? :)

Why hello! Brief, silly, and attention grabbing title set to the side I'm a 37 year old man-person hailing from the United States. I enjoy both deep and shallow discussions, serious and silly topics, being a dork, interacting with other dorks, and a whole host of other things! If we click, that’s awesome! If we don’t, that’s ok too! :)
Some of my interests include, but are not limited to: impromptu and unsolicited philosophizing, friendly debate, martial arts, writing, books and the reading of them (as well as other things that can be read), video games, movies, tv shows and the watching of them (and other things that can be watched, like TED talks), the lovely outdoors, animals, psychology, and much more. I will tease you (in a playful and good-hearted manner, if you're comfortable with that) listen to your pains and joys, tell you that you’re wrong about something if you are in fact wrong about it (and am ok with being told that I am wrong something if I am in fact wrong about it) and am willing to discuss damn near anything. I’m also a college student working on a degree in psychology, so schoolwork or work-work commiseration can be found here.
So, why not say hello if anything above interests you? :)

Hey everybody, I was hoping to get some feedback on my school list.
I'm a non-trad who spent 10 years in the Air Force doing some really cool, unique things, and I am able to speak on them well. Stats are:
ORM male, age 30
Microbiology major, chemistry minor at a state school
MCAT: 508
cGPA: 3.77 (took some classes before I enlisted that I didn't do well in/care about); sGPA: 3.86
Research: about 500 hours over two years with one poster presentation
Very strong MD LOR, very strong science professor LOR, and I'm assuming the rest are at least decent.
3 years volunteering every other week at a free clinic, around 250 hours
Various other volunteer events, none of which were health-related. For example, I did Meals on Wheels, organized a *very* small food drive, and was involved with a military designated driver association for a year or so.
Significant leadership experience & teaching (trainer in the military); approx 10k hours
ICU tech for about ~300 hours before switching jobs
Medical Scribe for ~800 hours, will continue this until matriculation
I think that is about all of the relevant information. Onto the school list!
Albany
Rosalind Franklin
Drexel
Eastern Virginia
Quinnipiac
Dartmouth -- MD LOR writer has connections here. Figured I'd at least try.
Geisinger Commonwealth
George Washington
Georgetown
Harvard -- Was going to apply here even with a 472 :) gotta shoot my shot, right?
Lewis Katz Temple
Oakland Beaumont
Pennsylvania State
Robert Larner
Rush
St. Louis
Sidney Kimmel
University of Utah (resident of this state)
Toledo
UCLA Geffen
University of Illinois
University of Kansas - (Grew up in Missouri & strong ties)
University of Maryland
University of South Carolina Greenville
University of Washington (Was a resident of Montana for 5 years)
Wake Forest
University of Missouri - Columbia (Grew up in Missouri & strong ties)
University of Missouri - Kansas City (Grew up in Missouri & strong ties)
University of Arizona - Phoenix
Ohio State
Baylor -- Same as Harvard. Might as well shoot my shot for that 0.05% chance. This is my pipe dream school.
DO Schools:
AT Still Kirksville
Chicago College of Osteopathic Medicine
Des Moines University of Osteopathic Medicine
Kansas City University
Philadelphia College of Osteopathic Medicine
I know a lot of these schools have a much higher median MCAT, and I'm well-aware that my MCAT is not strong. However, With the exception of Harvard, Dartmouth, Baylor, Ohio State, and University of Arizona, my MCAT is at least aligned with their 10th percentile scores.
Thanks for looking! Let me know what you guys think. The overall goal was ~40 schools.

Whether it's the Profile feature or the implementation of numerous APIs, they are all things that other browsers have had for ages, and Apple's first-party implementation doesn't offer anything unique.
Especially the PWA (Progressive Web App) functionality, it's embarrassing that they took a thousand years to catch up with the industry.
Considering the battery-gate issue that Apple had, which still causes a significant number of users to be reluctant to upgrade their systems, it will probably take another five to six years for these new features to reach general availability (GA).
Some might argue, "Well, it doesn't matter. We only care about X number of iOS versions, or even just the latest one. It's awesome!" To such developers, I would comment as follows: "You have no understanding of enterprise-level app development and even take pride in your ignorance. Bravo." I'm grateful that you haven't experienced users with iOS 12 devices complaining to you about website functionality issues.
So, based on the sections covered in this Safari release, my conclusion is as follows: putting lipstick on a pig and calling it a supermodel.

lk these things are normal on a high mile car or aging car > than 6 years old but still, I'm curious to know.
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Does anyone else feel like certain Pokemon have higher chances of being shiny, but like, per person or per game? Because I legit have an entire family of shiny Shinx, Luxio, and Luxray (multiple each, I even got a static Alpha Luxray), and although yeah I do have the shiny charm, none of them are perfected. Yet there are some Pokemon I've done pretty much every shiny hunting method for, yet can't get a single one. But on the flip side, I've seen people try to hunt for Shinx for AGES and can't get a single one, but then have like 5 shinies of one Pokemon, and I can't get a single one. Anyone Else feel this way? Or am I insane?

I posted a rant about vaccine-induced Long COVID a few days ago. The tone aNd sArCaStiC tYpE were neither kind nor compassionate - for which I sincerely apologize. I realized during the subsequent debate that my anger wasn’t with Long Haulers who worry the vaccine might have compounded or even caused their disability - it’s with the sociopaths who’ve weaponized the issue, to everyone’s detriment.
This subreddit is one of the few forums that seeks scientific corroboration even in the absence of irrefutable proof (vs the superstitious pseudo-scientific grifting we find pretty much everywhere else). We brainstorm mechanisms and potential treatments based on the studies we come across in the hopes that some of us might come up with ways to mitigate the damage done by SARS CoV-2. I’ve been very impressed by this collective hive-mind on more than one occasion.
Meanwhile, search Twitter or Facebook for anything COVID-related and by far the most hits you get have to do with vaccine war-crimes – no studies, no facts, just wave upon wave of speculation, misrepresentation and distrust, often from really slick-looking blogs and videos. Dig a little deeper into the allegations and you more often than not realize the authors’ motives aren’t the furthering of scientific knowledge. To put it mildly.
The problem isn’t your suspicion – it might not make physiological sense to me, but it’s what you’re going through – who am I to question that? No, the problem is that the vast majority of people pushing the vaccine-toxic! narrative (not here – out there) are politically motivated activists who were at it long before mRNA was a thing and who would use Long Haulers as a Trojan horse to take down the institutions they loathe – the very institutions we need to get us out of this mess.
They’ve made any serious conversation about the issue (let alone serious research on it) unbearably loaded.
You can’t work with bad-faith actors, and we need to work this problem (I mean Long COVID – be it vaccine-aggravated, vaccine-induced or utterly unrelated to vaccines).
Educating the medical establishment? Please, God, yes. Sowing distrust in the medical establishment? That will always worry me. Our trust in them has badly eroded - partly from within, through misguided convenience, medical dogma and outright incompetence – but partly from without, via well-funded, politically-motivated campaigns of disinformation and, often, an incomplete understanding of the inner-workings of vaccine research and, crucially, vaccine approval.
We need to fight on both fronts simultaneously. In my mind, that means looking especially hard at the evidence and pushing back against loose-association soundbites. Bad info doesn’t just attack a given vaccine, it threatens public health as a collective goal. That's the point. And I for one won't stand by while lies pass for the truth. On either side of this (or any) issue.
That being said, I agree that we need to look the vaccine’s effect on Long COVID. I’ve held off getting a booster out of fear that it might compound my condition (just as a cold might, or merely taking out the trash at this point) but also because I don’t need it, seeing as I intend to remain in an air-tight bubble at least until I get healthy again (I can afford that luxury – I know most people can’t).
Could a booster help eliminate our symptoms, as some have reported? We should look into that. Could it make them worse, as others have reported? We’d find out. If only to ease concerns that Long COVID was self-inflicted, I think it would be worth it. The lunatic fringe has made that inquiry fraught. So I’m angry alright. But not at you – at them.
Bottom line: I still think it’s a disservice to consider vaccine-induced Long COVID a fact instead of a hypothesis. Because we don’t yet know for sure, but also because of the vultures circling above us. If it were up to them, society would go without any vaccine, plunging us back into the dark ages of high infant mortality and preventable disease. And I’m still hoping a better (much better) vaccine might still bring an end to this shit-show of a pandemic.
People I trust and who are well versed in medicine find the Vaccine-induced hypothesis physiologically tenuous, but as with so many other things COVID, there is too much we don’t yet understand. Calling you out the way I did was wrong. I’m sorry for that. It won’t happen again.

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I have been struggling with "my" heritage (quotations because I do not feel Assyrian at all) ever since I was a child. I grew up in a large Iraqi Chaldean diaspora center, but I have spent a considerate amount of time around Assyrians from all over. What I can say is that Assyrians and Chaldeans are practically identical in behavior. So, this isn't a sectarian post.
Even if it's taboo to say, I am anonymous and hopefully this will help another Assyrian girl. My family is incredibly physically, verbally, and emotionally abusive. There are many things I do not want to go into detail about. I basically had to raise myself after the age of 8; my mom did not see a point in taking care of me the same way she did for my brothers. I had to cook and clean for myself, and the emotional support and love any child would have had was out of the question for me. As a teenager, when you need your mom the most, mine was absent and neglected me to suffer alone. Even during high school, my parents did not care about my education, and my mom regulated me to her maid who did all of her cleaning, instead of having me focus on studying.
My parents were very strict and isolated me from my friends. I wasn't allowed to go out or invite people over unless they were Assyrian girls approved by my parents. I missed out on a lot of genuine friendships and normal development other teenage girls would have. The Assyrian girls I was allowed to be friends with were backstabbing and did whatever they could to take me down. As a result, I spent my entire teenage years isolated and rejected because I was only allowed to socialize with Assyrians. I went to elementary and high school with Chaldeans, and it was one of the most miserable times of my life. I had to hear all the time from my own kind how ugly I was, how weird, people would take pics of me to post online and mock. For those 4 years I was endlessly bullied by mostly Chaldean girls.
I was fortunate enough to move out two years ago, and it really hurt me realizing that all the awful things my family and others told me about my personality wasn't true. I know I am not "weird" or whatever horrible things they said that it hurts to repeat, because I have no problem making friends outside of the culture. I finally have a good social life, but with non-Assyrians. I tried chalking it up to bad experiences, but every. single. Assyrian/Chaldean. girl. I. know. is like horrible. If I go to church and I'm friendly, they will still find ways to be passively aggressive, isolate me and gossip. I do nothing wrong, I just don't understand.
Assyrian /Chaldean behavior is identical to the same mshlmaneh they trash 24/7. They have the same dishonesty, envy, backstabbing, jealousy, and misogyny that mshlmane do. I truly cannot emphasize how dishonest and jealous the culture is. It is absolutely disgusting to me and the main reason why I have never fit in. I am not "blunt" or harsh with people; their feelings matter a lot to me. However, I cannot be two faced and lie. That led to a lot of abuse from my mother and female cousins, who tried to (literally) beat it out of me or break me down for it. Every Assyrian/Chaldean I know talks shit about their own family, and closest of friends. I have seen too much fucked up, unChristian behavior from our kind. We are encouraged to be deceptive, and anyone who denies this is continuing the problem.
I had a friend who hates being Chaldean and married a white man, and acts white - while also exhibiting all of these issues. I don't want to be like her. I can't run away from it forever, and I truly want to accept my heritage, but how can I, after all of this? I cannot imagine passing down Sureth to my children, because it's a language of hatred. This subreddit is the longest I have spent around Assyrians, because in person, I get panic attacks. I am an immigrant, whose first language is Sureth, who looks very Assyrian, but struggle because I fit in nowhere.
I hope the mods keep this post up because it's a big issue not only for me but for a lot of other young Assyrians. I can't talk about it with my nakhraye friends, and no one understands.

Hi everyone, I’m putting together a group of four, for a relaxed beginner friendly PF2E one shot. My name is Ethan [20 he/him] and this will be my first time DMing Pathfinder 2e. In the past I’ve DMed and played in a handful of 5e campaigns, but after discovering PF2E I’ve had a relentless itch to try it out.
The one shot is one of Paizo’s “Pathfinder Bounties'' meant for four level one characters and it should take about two hours give or take. The earliest start time will be 8:30pm EST, however I can start later if needed. As for the day of the game I’m quite flexible, but would prefer for it to be on a weekday. We will use Discord for voice and Owlbear Rodeo for gameplay. Lastly, I hope this goes without saying but everyone is welcome and there will be no tolerance for disrespect of any kind.
Here’s the adventure blurb: You are all part of a small band of thieves living in Demica, one of the major cities in the Aldaltan Desert along the infamously treacherous Scarlet Path. The head of your thieving party is Toth, an old gnomish man with a mind meant for conning. Because of Toth’s rather mysterious and unconventional connections he is responsible for finding the leads and fencing the takes. Today he has urgently gathered you to share some urgent news about an upcoming job.
"A wealthy lord foolishly underestimated the perils of the Scarlet Path and was robbed at sword point. Apparently he’s in much distress as the bandits stole his prized antique puzzle box. Word is that the bandits who robbed him are the Sand Snakes and lucky for us I know where they reside in the desert. Though this news has not reached the streets yet, it soon will and then everyone will be after it, so you best move quick."
If you are interested in playing please message me on Reddit with the following: 1. An introduction of who you are (name, age, pronouns etc.) 2. Your TTRPG experience 3. Your PF2E experience 4. Your availability 5. Anything that you think is relevant that I didn’t add above

As a woman the main people who were interested or attracted to me were men, who i did not enjoy the attention of whatsoever. even if they didnt come across as creepy or shallow and came from a place of emotion and good intent, i still just didnt care if they liked me 1% because them liking me didnt activate any dopamin or reward points in my brain. i either felt neutral about it or bad/disgusted. men liking me has NEVER amounted up to the way i felt when women liked me as a man bc the way the two sexes showed interest in me was just very different and ill get into that a little bit. anyway, women also showed attraction to me as a woman, but it was much less intense and much more subtle like just a quick comment like "you're hot" or "would you ever date someone like me? (playfully)"
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as a trans man, i just had a lot more women interested in me in a way that felt different. it was much more intense and direct and women appeared to be being DIRECT for once, blatantly stating thei desires and feelings. this was majorly on dating apps by the way. but id get a lot more physical compliments such as being handsome or beautiful, or the most handsome guy theyve seen, i have been called the nicest man theyve never met, sweetest man, most adorable or cute man, etc. i have had multiple women say they adore my voice and asking me to send them audio clips of it - even tho my male voice was/is extremtly annoying and nasally. i have had women be much more quick to want to commit to me. the time period in my life when i was dating the most was as a trans man. it was like, date after date. most women into me were bisexual women but i also had a good chunk of straight women who just declared theirself as being into femboys/soft guys/more feminine or gentle guys. i felt very very adored and for the first time in my life i felt sexy too. even though i wanna make it clear that i look much more attactive as a woman, because my features match a lot of what society says is attractive in a woman, mainly in the face. despite looking better as a woman than a man, it was only when i became a trans man that for the first time i ever, i felt sexy. i think it mainly had to do with the way women would dote on me online and give me so much (undeserved) praise and i basically felt like a sexy trans man god because of the way they were reacting to me. i just felt very attractive as a trans man, it felt good to be desired by peopple i wanted to desire me, and in the way i wanted to BE desired.
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thats another thing. women or men liking me as a woman never feels/felt right because its always very feminine. and it was basically always based on me being feminine or looking feminine. but as a trans man i could video call a girl bare faced with fucking acne and the woman would call me a handsome cutie pie. if i did that as a woman.. yeah, i wouldnt have gotten that reaction. there were higher expectations on what to look and/or act like as a woman in order to match up to an ideal, i feel like. and also the feminine treatment that came along with someone perceiving me as a feminine being and treating me as such, and my worth as being a sexy person or not being reliant on how feminine i am... you can see why i didnt feel sexy as a woman. because it was so tied to how much of a "woman" i was. meanwhile as a trans man, i could be masculine, feminine, anything i wanted, and i still got all this praise. the women just liked me as a being, not because of a performance i was doing.
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and also like i said earlier, i didnt get as much attention from women as a woman. if i did, it was super subtle and shy and didnt usually lead anywhere and it was mild. for some reason when i became a man, women seemed to take me more seriou and actually see me as a sexual partner and a sexual being. i feel like as a woman i got seen as like, a child, by women. i wasnt seen as a sexual partner, just like a cute thing to look at and call cute as a passing comment and then move on. but as a trans man women were actually wanting to f me and/or chat me up to see about possibly dating. it probablly doesnt help that as a woman i looked super young for my age, but still. as a trans man i felt very adored, almost idolized sometimes.
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anyway the attention i get as a woman is mostly from men, and even though i suppose that i like bothe women and men, i guess, i still just.. dont enjoy the attention straight men give to me as a woman. i just dont. i dont know why, i just dont, and i never have. in fact, almost all my earliest childhood memories was of me running away from or avoiding boys who liked me, and me calling them gross and rejecting them. i just dont like attention from straight men romantically or sexually. but do i like attention from straight or bi women? yes. most specifically, i like it as a man. why? because of the reasons i just listed up there
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i dont know exactly why women seemed to love me a lot more as a trans man. number one i was on a lot of lgbt dating platforms so that probably played a role. they probably were a fan of trans men as a whole. and secondly, maybe it had to do with being more interesting or enticing than a cis person? thirdly a lot of women seemed to like me for basically having the "emotional intlligence and/or socialization" of a woman, but looking male. but as a cis woman, i guess it is more boring and/or predictable and thats why i got less attention? i dont know. but i just know that all my most INTENSE dating experiences came from living as a trans man, not as a woman, even though the amount of people that desired me as a woman were higher as a whole. it sometimes makes it hard to not want to go back to that. being a trans man to experience that again. i really did soak and bathe in the praise. everytime i got called handsome, everytime i got called the cutest guy theyve ever seen, everytime id get complimented by these women, it really made me feel attractive in a way ive never felt before in my life, and thats easy to miss. i dont really feel attractive as a woman even tho i know i am. i can see in the mirror that i look okay. but i dont see sexy or attractive as a woman, and men's interest in me does not excite me, make me happy, or make me feel attractive. idk its jusst hard to explain.
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basically to summarize, i only like romantic and sexual attention as a trans man, not as a woman. and no i dont have any sexual traumas or issues relating to gender. oh also i just wanna add that for some reason i got a fuck ton more kinky as a trans man but i think that was probably just the libido increase. i became interested in things i am not into as a woman. for example if someone wanted to tie me down and whip me as a woman, or lick/suck a body part of mine as a woman it would be a hell no. but as a trans man it was always a hell yes.

Spiritually new age stuff might help because Christianity as we know it is not real. Jesus message was about rebirth of the soul aka the Akashic records the illuminati reptilians have tried to hide deceive people with. Each soul has a journey or recurring themes past lives and your soul is literally trapped until the meaning is let go. That’s what the reptilian illuminati has tried to literally trap souls through hiding the true message of Christ and manipulation of the Bible as it is today. We are not just bad people or sinners but yes we do bad stuff and there’s really bad people I know I suffered from child sexual abuse and severe neglect my dad was abusive and let my sisters get strung out on drugs. But the darkness we have that is there can be cleared through prayer meditation or I think more new age spiritually maybe self realization fellowship or Hinduism? Christianity as we know it isn’t real it was manipulated to hide humanity’s nature as literally loved beings by God and part of his universe. Reptilians are literally demons demonic forces to bring down the human race pedophilia Covid the illuminati reptilians etc. please read David icke if you haven’t I’m sure you have or the akashic records

Just as title says... I'm weirded out by this. Outside of getting my kid a towel or answering a question she calls me for, she baths solo.
But this past weekend she said ex mil helped her bath and was there the whole time but didn't wash her privates-she did that herself. Child said she was OK with it as she likes the company which makes me think maybe I'm just overreacting because I loathe this woman. But also ex mil raised her son to be dependant as an adult and she always failed to relaize shes not the parent to my child so all around, I don't trust her with my kid. . Also no one bathed me past 7yo.
And while my daughter likes ex mil and all... this woman was cut off from ages 1-4 due to her antics and epic tantrums. My mom who child is especially close with, doesn't go in to help bath her anymore. So I can't even blame this on a generational thing or a closeness thing.
For gosh sakes she'll be hitting puberty soon. Also... she's capable of bathing solo and has been for 2 years.
Am I overreacting here?