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Hi everyone, this is my first Reddit post ever and I have no idea on how this Works.
Anyways here's what's been hitting on my mental health recently.
I am a 16 y-o boy and this year I realized that I had voices inside of my head. 2 to be specific and another kind of thing whatever it is but I call it the crowd. The crowd is not constantly present unlike the voices and it affects my behavior and mood much more than the voices. Whenever the crowd appears its as if i was in a Bubble and every sound around me Makes me more and more Mad or upset. Sometimes i cant even speak. I have no idea when they appeared but I have always been used to these kind of noises in my head which could explain how it took me so long. I see professionals almost everyday to get all this figured out. We have had many discussions about it and i even got to see a psychologist. She made me sign a form that Says she was allowed to contact ressources linked to what she thinks i have. The people she contacted are people specialized in psychosis/psychotic related problems. Which gives me a kind of preview of what issue i could have. I am still waiting to see the person that Will offer me the services i need in order to get a diagnosis.
The news were very hard to accept as this was not something i wished to hear. Can anyone give me tips on how to keep my head up and to keep the courage and strenght i need to get through this. knowing that things like hallucinations and voices and kind of body switching with my voices have gotten worse in just 2 years. Sorry if details are missing i Will be more than happy to answer questions tomorrow. Thanks in avance.

I (30 m) recently started a paid subscription on Match. A couple days ago on the site, I saw a woman a couple years younger than me who I had known from my high school (a K-12 private Christian school in Florida). More specifically, she and I had worked at the school's summer camp waaaay back in 2012 (the year after I graduated), and I remember thinking she was really nice—and cute! But unfortunately, I was attending a college up in New York at the time. So in my mind, it would have made no sense for me to try and pursue anything with her. I was kind of bummed, but oh well.
Anyways, I have since moved back home to Florida, so I was thrilled to see that she was still around, and single. So, I shot her a short message the other day on Match... before I realized that she had a free account, and thus likely couldn’t even see my message (and might not have even been able to see my profile pic, aside from a blurred image). Not to mention that she didn’t even view my profile.
So I found her on Facebook and sent her this message: “Hey! I just saw you on Match lol. Not sure if you remember me, but I went to Northside. Hope you’ve been well!” I know that sometimes Fb puts messages from non-Fb-friends in a “requests” foldedoesn’t necessarily show them easily in the inbox, so I sent her a friend request too in hopes that she would see my message. Wellll, I noticed yesterday that she had rejected my friend request. 😕 And of course Fb still didn’t show my message as “Seen,” leading me to believe that she probably forgot who I was/had no idea I had messaged her, either on Match or Fb.
Later yesterday afternoon as I was browsing Plenty of Fish, I coincidentally saw her on there too! I “liked” her and sent her the following message:
“Hey! I just realized you didn’t accept my friend request on Fb. 😬 Not sure if you saw my message or not there (sometimes Fb sends [sic] hides messages from someone until you are friends with them), but just in case you didn’t, I’m [Boober_Bill]; I think we both worked at the [insert school name here] summer camp back in 2012? I thought you were really nice and attractive back then, and was glad to see you are still around town!
I just wasn’t sure if maybe you didn’t recognize me(?) Orrr if you just don’t like me for some reason, no worries at all. But in case you simply didn’t see my message, or didn’t remember me: I moved back to FL from NY, and am looking for a serious relationship. And I just thought I’d reach out. I would love to get to know you, maybe grab a bite or a drink sometime if you would be interested?
I’m also currently deconstructing my Christian faith (leaning towards agnosticism) and am in the process of changing in various ways; I was happy to see you’re non-religious. Anyways, I didn’t mean to bother you- sorry if I did. I won’t reach out anymore if I don’t hear anything, but I just wanted you to know that I’m interested. Hope all is well with you, and I would love to hear from you! -[Boober_Bill]”
I’m not usually that forward on dating sites/apps—usually I admittedly just send a brief “Hey”/smalltalk message, unless something in particular stands out to me. But in this case I was just really excited to see this woman who I used to have a mini crush on all those years ago, and I was thrilled that she popped up on POF and thus gave me one more chance to hopefully get a message to her, assuming that she didn’t see my Fb message.
Now is the time when I should probably mention that I have anxiety/OCD. I have suffered from it since high school, and it sucks. My mind has a seemingly limitless capacity to ponder “what if” thoughts, constantly having doubts about what I believe, what I like, who I am as a person, what I should have done, what I shouldn’t have done, the questions of life, etc.
Seeing her friend request rejection yesterday basically gave me an anxiety attack, so keep in mind that that’s the frame of mind I was in when I wrote the above POF message. I waited with bated breath all yesterday, trying to calm myself down, while at the same time my mind was flooded with a million second-thoughts about what I should have done differently. I kept obsessively checking POF to see if she had been online (and thus seen hopefully my message), while at the same time I kept re-reading my message and critiquing it, wondering if I should have left out x line, or if I should have worded y differently.
She didn’t get on the site for the rest of yesterday, but today I noticed she had gone online, and that she had viewed my profile. So, at least I’m 99% sure at this point that she’s probably read my message. Annnd… No response.
It is what it is, and I would love it if she messages me, but I feel like there’s no hope at this point. And honestly, I just feel really bad. I can’t help but feel super awkward, or like some sort of creep. I mean, it doesn’t help that when I briefly explained the situation to my little cousin last night, and she told me:
“Yeah some people just aren’t meant for you. I’d say bullet dodged for you. But definitely be cautious over messaging someone just because it can come off aggressive. Not that you meant it to of course but, as a woman, it can be a bit intimidating.”
😩 I mean, if I wasn’t already feeling like a creep, I was after reading that. I explained myself better to her, and told her that my line of thought was (1) she likely can’t even see that I messaged her on Match, because of her free account, (2) it doesn’t say that my Fb message was “Seen,” (3) POF is mostly free, so if I message her there then at least it’s a guarantee that she’ll see, (4) I told her in my message on POF that it was totally fine if she wasn’t interested, and that I wouldn’t message her any more, but that I just wasn’t sure whether she saw that I messaged her, or not. I mean, I’ve definitely been in the opposite situation before on some of these dating sites (like Match, before I paid for a subscription!), where I had people message me, but then I wasn’t able to see who it was or able to even read their message, because the site wanted me to pay for that. Which is dumb. So anyways, I just assumed that that could have been the case here, and I didn’t want to give up until I had made sure that my message at least got to her. But of course now my OCD mind is second-guessing everything, especially since it seems my POF message didn’t go over as I had hoped. Heck, now my OCD even has me wondering “what if” I have some other condition, like autism or Aspergers or something—just because I keep feeling so awkward and weird and vulnerable after having reached out to her like that.
Not sure why I’m even posting this here. Advise, reassurance? I don’t mean to be a bother. Anyways, thanks a lot for reading.

I (32F) met a guy (30M) on a dating app over a week ago. We exchanged a couple messages before he asked for my number and I gave it to him the same day we matched. We were texting a little within the next day. Then he asked me when he can take me out on a date. We agreed to meet that night (the day after we matched) for some drinks. He said he was really nervous to meet me, but I tried to make him feel more comfortable.
I drove to his city and we met at one of his favorite bars. He introduced me to his friends/bartenders. I feel like we got along well. We both equally contributed to the conversation and had some good laughs. He kept saying how when football season came back, he’d like to go to the games and invited me. He including me in lots of future plans he had for himself. Then he mentioned the best steak he’s had at a steakhouse nearby and asked if I had been there before. I said no and he asked if I wanted to go there at that moment. I said absolutely because it sounds fun. I offered to pay for my tab at the bar, but he covered it and I thanked him.
He took an Uber to the bar since he lives close by. So he said we can take an Uber to the restaurant or take my car. I said we can take my car. I drove us super close by to the restaurant. We continued the great conversation and he said he’s never brought another woman to this restaurant before. He also told me he had never been on a date with a woman as attractive as me and he complimented me on my looks many times during the date. We also flirted heavily throughout the night and got a little tipsy.
Once we got done at the restaurant, again I offered to pay, and he said no and covered it. I thanked him again. He then asked if I’d like to over to his place and I agreed. We slept together and he asked me to stay the night, so I did. Everything was great. I went home the next morning. He texted me later that day and told me he wanted to cuddle me all day. I told him I could go over and we could cuddle, but he said he had plans with friends that night. I said no worries and told him to have fun. We continued texting for a bit the day after the date and he said he wanted to see me again and I said I’d love that.
Over the next few days, he didn’t really text me. I would reach out to him and he’d either give me a quick call or we’d exchange a couple of messages and that’s it. I can tell he’s not a big texter, which is fine. The one time he did call me, he was in the car with one of his friends. I was on speaker phone and he introduced me to his friend. It was a nice, but short conversation.
I have been waiting for him to ask me out on a second date or ask to see me and hang out again, but he still hasn’t. I’ve hinted to him a couple times that I want to see him again by telling him “I miss you” or “I can’t wait to get all dressed up for you again.” I’ve even straight up asked him one night if he’d like to have dinner and hang out, but he said he had plans with friends that night.
I’m getting the hint that he’s just not interested or he’s dating other people, which is totally fine. I just don’t understand what he wants from me. He won’t text me or call me or ask me for a second date or to hang out, but he’ll comment on every selfie I post on both Instagram and snapchat. Every single one. He tells me I’m beautiful and cute. He says he misses me. He also calls me babe. Just the other night, I posted a selfie before going to the gym on my Instagram story and he replied “my babe.” I’m confused. Is he interested in me? Is he not? If he’s not interested, why is he still flirting with me on social media only and telling me he misses me? If he is interested, why isn’t he texting me here and there or asking me out again? Should I ask him again? I just don’t want to be too persistent and push him away because I feel like we had a good connection. Should I just leave it alone and let him make a move if he’s even still interested?
TL;DR: A guy I went on a great date with isn’t texting/calling me or making a move to see me again, but still constantly flirts with me on social media. Why? Advice is appreciated.

Hey, fellow Redditors! I've been pondering a question that has been bugging me for quite some time, and I figured this would be the perfect community to ask for some insights. Why is it that many car dealerships seem to rely on old, outdated, and frankly, ugly-looking software? It's like they're stuck in a time warp while the rest of the world moves forward with sleek, modern solutions.Here are a few thoughts that come to mind, but please feel free to share your own perspectives and experiences:
Familiarity and Resistance to Change: Dealerships have been using traditional software for decades, and change can be daunting. Even if the software is outdated, it might be deeply ingrained in their operations, making it hard to let go.
Cost Considerations: Developing and implementing new software can be a significant investment. Dealerships might be hesitant to allocate funds towards upgrading their systems, especially if they perceive their existing software to be functional enough for their needs.
Integration Challenges: Many dealerships rely on various systems for different aspects of their operations, such as inventory management, customer relationship management (CRM), finance, and more. Integrating new software seamlessly with these existing systems can be a complex task.
Industry-Specific Requirements: The automotive industry has its unique set of challenges and compliance requirements. Perhaps the existing software, despite its outdated appearance, has been tailored to meet these specific needs, making it harder to replace.
Lack of Awareness: Dealership owners and managers might not be fully aware of the advancements in software technology and the potential benefits of adopting modern solutions. Without a clear understanding of the advantages, they may not prioritize upgrading their systems.
If you've worked at a dealership or have any insights into why there isn't an upgrade, please share your thoughts! Looking forward to hearing your perspectives!

Hey, I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit and flair but I'm in need of help.
I recently bought an old office pc, an optiplex 5050 with a core i5 6500, 16 gb of ddr4, and I slapped a 1050 ti on it to make a budget gaming pc. I also got an ssd on it and installed windows 10 on it. Everything was fine until I booted up borderlands 3, I got an LowLevelFatalError Line 3455 and got a BSOD with the stop code of Critical process died then others of Memory Management. I tired other games and also recieved similar BSOD's. I check the Temps during the games and they look fine on the gpu. They also run really well. The PC can run fine in idle too.
I first tried running memtest86 and it said it passed, but I'm not sure I ran the test correctly. I updated all my drivers using Driver easy. I also investigated more on the Critical Process Died and forums have said it has something to do with the drivers? I'm not sure but I checked on windows system logs and most of every red warning symbol had something related to TMP? Idk what this is but alot of errors are related to that. I'm not sure where to go from here since the errors keep persisting.
I do want to mention that I installed windows 10 using an old USB I had so maybe it's that? Should I try a fresh install of Windows? I also wanted to ask if it could be a hardware issue? I did buy the gpu and overall pc used so it's a possibility, but everything does appear to be working fine apart from the BSOD's
Any help is appreciated

Hey, I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit and flair but I'm in need of help.
I recently bought an old office pc, an optiplex 5050 with a core i5 6500, 16 gb of ddr4, and I slapped a 1050 ti on it to make a budget gaming pc. I also got an ssd on it and installed windows 10 on it. Everything was fine until I booted up borderlands 3, I got an LowLevelFatalError Line 3455 and got a BSOD with the stop code of Critical process died then others of Memory Management. I tired other games and also recieved similar BSOD's. I check the Temps during the games and they look fine on the gpu. They also run really well. The PC can run fine in idle too.
I first tried running memtest86 and it said it passed, but I'm not sure I ran the test correctly. I updated all my drivers using Driver easy. I also investigated more on the Critical Process Died and forums have said it has something to do with the drivers? I'm not sure but I checked on windows system logs and most of every red warning symbol had something related to TMP? Idk what this is but alot of errors are related to that. I'm not sure where to go from here since the errors keep persisting.
I do want to mention that I installed windows 10 using an old USB I had so maybe it's that? Should I try a fresh install of Windows? I also wanted to ask if it could be a hardware issue? I did buy the gpu and overall pc used so it's a possibility, but everything does appear to be working fine apart from the BSOD's
Any help is appreciated

I don't know where else to put this. Mental illnesses specifically ocd have destroyed my psyche and life. Pretty sure parts of my brain are damaged from the prolonged and acute anxiety 24/7 from the ocd obsessions around my identity. All I do is sleep, be on my phone for 12-14 hours a day, cope with watching Yt trash, and childhood shows, game for hours to numb the pain and do a part time driving job bc I can't function otherwise and repeat. Even this driving job, Allah knows how it takes everything in me every morning to get through the few hours of working. Trying to appear normal but burning with distress and anxiety inside just to come back home and fall flat from depression. I don't even feel like a human anymore due to the dissociation. I prayed and prayed for help when it first began, nothing happened, then prayed on and off again within these 3 years, still no help.
Haha, what sucks is I might be neurodivergent of some sort too and most likely gay so the possibility to be ever be normal is non existent. The part that pains me the most is that I have a younger brother and a mother that I was supposed to be the provider and carer for in this foreign country. Wanted to be a good role model for my brother, i didn't have a healthy male figure growing up and I know what that did to me. But I can't even function, im turning 24 next month and It terrifies me how my life has turned out. Even if I could supress all this torture, get a career and work a job to earn money, I cant, I have no skills and knowledge, im a failure. Therapy hasn't worked out, I struggle to explain myself so that's another route closed.
I fantasize about sucie so much and it makes me feel at ease, if my mom and bro could get settled somehow for life, id end it all within a week. But damn, It feels like a stab in the heart to think I cant be there to watch my brother grow up.
lm going to do self rukya and try my best to be sincere in prayers and ask for forgiveness without expecting anything in return from Allah as a last resort. But honestly I've realized many times Ive lost myself in mental issues to be normal again and will likely have no choice but to end it, I think Allah will forgive me bc he sees my situation. Its crazy bc I was a regular dude with fairly common insecurities growing up, never did I think it'd turn out like this.
Sorry for such a long post, my chest feels heavy. I guess I might as well ask, what can I do? And sorry if anything sounded cringe, English is not my language.

Hey, I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit and flair but I'm in need of help.
I recently bought an old office pc, an optiplex 5050 with a core i5 6500, 16 gb of ddr4, and I slapped a 1050 ti on it to make a budget gaming pc. I also got an ssd on it and installed windows 10 on it. Everything was fine until I booted up borderlands 3, I got an LowLevelFatalError Line 3455 and got a BSOD with the stop code of Critical process died then others of Memory Management. I tired other games and also recieved similar BSOD's. I check the Temps during the games and they look fine on the gpu. They also run really well. The PC can run fine in idle too.
I first tried running memtest86 and it said it passed, but I'm not sure I ran the test correctly. I updated all my drivers using Driver easy. I also investigated more on the Critical Process Died and forums have said it has something to do with the drivers? I'm not sure but I checked on windows system logs and most of every red warning symbol had something related to TMP? Idk what this is but alot of errors are related to that. I'm not sure where to go from here since the errors keep persisting.
I do want to mention that I installed windows 10 using an old USB I had so maybe it's that? Should I try a fresh install of Windows? I also wanted to ask if it could be a hardware issue? I did buy the gpu and overall pc used so it's a possibility, but everything does appear to be working fine apart from the BSOD's
Any help is appreciated

I (41F) recently was contacted by a woman (60F) who said she had a baby with my father who has been deceased since 2006 (at the age of 62). Her son is 33.
I’m not surprised by this. My father loved women and they loved him. He was single at the time he dated this woman, and I vaguely remember her as I was only about 5-6 then. In fact, I’ve always jokingly said, “I’m the youngest of 7….. that I know of.”
She told me some history between her and my Dad that ended up with her leaving and telling him that he was not the father, when in fact, he was (according to her). The things she told me, while not impossible, are things I’ve never known about my Dad to be true, such as him being abusive in one instance, and then suicidal in another. None of his wives or gfs, including my Mom, have ever mentioned him being violent or having mental health problems. They all talked about him being unfaithful, but not violent.
I’m of the belief that she has her story, and my Dad would have his own, but he isn’t here to defend himself or tell his side, and I think it’s disrespectful for me to entertain her story or believe her. This all happened 33-34 years ago. It has made me very uneasy.
I have yet to speak to her son, though I’m open to forming a relationship with him if it turns out to be true. I had a very good relationship with my dad, and I don’t want those other things to be true. Does it even matter at this point if her story is truth?
I’ve asked that she get an ancestry kit for her son, since I did it several years ago, to confirm our dna matches. I would rather not open the lines of communication until I’m sure. I have a family to protect. Is there any other reason I should be wary of this situation?
Also… she says she wanted to reach out before but could never find information on my brother, mother, or me until recently.

Why can't people just leave others alone? It's not a hard concept. So many people have nothing else to do than to pick flaws of strangers it's like they live for conflict with random people.
The main thing is people always think I'm staring at them. Just because I have my permanent RBF/stern face they assume I'm pissed off at them or whatever. I cannot understand others who insult random people who are just minding their own business when outside. Like what I'm wearing, my height, my face does not impact your life at all. It's getting so petty it's like whereever you go—a store, a laundromat, etc people are always looking for fights (verbal or physical). You say ONE thing to defend yourself and people act like the world is ending and they want to get their family to fight you or other stupid shit.
Throughout my life there are constant things that happen...
One, I am out walking somewhere or sitting and someone always assumes I'm "staring at them" because I dared to glance at them or past their direction (yet it's fine when they full-on stare at me). Yes I know I'm ugly but I'm not interested in your petty beef. I don't want anything to do with people; I'm just a introvert with a RBF trying to go about my business. In fact I would rather look at the ground or honestly close my eyes but the latter is seen as weird. I guess when I glance somewhere people take it the wrong way since I look mad.
Two, people are always commenting about my appearance. Especially the people with their own glaring problems. Like nothing wrong with fat people but I've had fat people talking about my height. I am short and I've had short women talk about it too... like I know I'm a guy (and social norms aside) but you're literally the same height as me. Even have people insulting my clothes as I'm walking past for literally no reason. I just have on plain clothing, nothing too fancy. A plain shirt, a plain hoodie. Also people cursing me out for no reason all as I am walking past them.
When I'm going somewhere people get mad even if they are walking slow and excuse yourself past them. They give you the glare like you just murked their dog. You literally cannot win in this world. Even when you keep to yourself they have a problem with that. "Why are you so boring?" I am on purpose. You do anything people just end up hating on you. Talking about you behind your back. I fee so bad because sometimes I come across kind people but I am burned out by all the insults hurled around for existing in a location that I am not extremely open as I want to be. I am not a people person but in contrast I always have this urge to help people if I can. Makes me feel guilty for example if I don't help an elder or something, unless they are rude to me then I'm not helping them.
Nowadays I rarely ever make small talk to anyone except super close family. I would rather honestly be ignored by majority of people but in life I'm getting positive and negative people thrown around about everyday/every other day. Not a fan of fame or standing out. I just want to be financially comfortable and ignored. As long as I have food, close family and entertainment that's all I need, screw people.

I like to do this two or three times a year, it's a sacred way of confirming my intimacy and connection with myself, with the humanity of people around me, and this beautiful world we live in. I love the way MDMA opens up the filters, lets us see the beauty and connection and love out there in the world that it's too easy to miss, let's us say the true things that can be hard to say, to ourselves or to somebody else.
It's been half a year, I'm feeling ready. For various reasons, my normal partners for this stuff either aren't available or aren't interested right at this time. And yes, if somebody is interested, I do expect to give references of people I've done these things with before, so you can talk with them to vet me.
This isn't about sex. I'm in my '60s and significantly overweight, andit doesn't work all that well anyway. It would be about getting to know somebody deeply and intimately, with those filters down, and I'm completely cool with setting boundaries beforehand. Boundaries are a lot easier to set before an experience like this, than to try and figure out what you'll want them to have been, in the middle of it. Physical touch and closeness often feels wonderful, but I've done rolls with people where we didn't touch at all, and that was wonderful too. Deep connections come in a lot of forms.
I would probably prefer a woman or somebody fem identified, but if I can be convinced that they're free of the kind of het masculinist stuff that I find so annoying, I would consider somebody male or masc identified.
This is a long shot I know, obviously there's conversation and trust to build before it could happen. But it occurs to me there might be somebody else who's feeling the need to open to the world right now, with a spiritually inclined (if materialistically trained and scientific) partner to share it with.

Is there a name for a person who works with mostly male clientele that works on things like hair style/color, eyebrow shaping, skincare, as well as fashion help..? To help improve a guys physical appearance?
Like a sort of all-in-one deal instead of having to pay/collaborate with 10 different people?
I know there’s a lot of options for women, but not necessarily men. I’m not talking a whole total makeover but someone to help guide them to what works best for their existing features and current aesthetic.

Beginner here. I understand that many good system uses a digital steamer playing lossless music file such as flac. The output is then passed optically to a DSP such as the DDRC-22. I’m not sure what to do with this signal to get the best sound music. From what I read, there seem to be two camps. One camp would take this signal after the DSP and passes it digitally to a receiver such as the x4800h which appears to have a good DAC (am I wrong?). The other camp would take the signal after the DSP and pass it to an independent DAC and then pre amp or amp.
My question is what would produce better sound economically? I don’t want to spend over $3000 for all the hardwares. This is for music and I don’t care about home theatre (yet). Thanks in advance.

Don’t really expect anybody to respond, but here it goes anyway. I’m an all around nerdy guy from the Midwest who loves video games, movies, books, anime and manga. I can be a bit quiet at first, but value the bonds that I form (for those wondering, my personality type is INFJ). I want to find a woman who respects me for who I am, and would like to share new experiences with me, someone who will be there with me for the rest of my life and who feels like she can be safe with me. We don’t need to trade pictures right away, but when we do I just ask that you verify by showing your username in the photo and I will do the same in mine.
A few things about me that could be potential dealbreakers that I want to get out of the way are that I am nonreligious, am currently living with family, and would like to potentially start a family in the future.
Feel free to message me and tell me a little about yourself and hopefully we’ll get to know each other. Also, I’m not really active on social media in general which I know can be a bit of a red flag for some people, but I am will do what I can to verify I am who I say I am as long as you don’t ask for information that is obviously too personal.

Okay so during the chase scene there is this one Spiderman(woman?) that I am dying to know the name of. She is the forefront of a chat in the breakroom/cafe? She has stone butch vibe with a body-type like Zarya from Overwatch or Scorpia from She-Ra and the Princess of Power. Her suit has thorns and looks asymmetrical? And I think it waa blue??

Hey, I'm not sure if this is the right subreddit and flair but I'm in need of help.
I recently bought an old office pc, an optiplex 5050 with a core i5 6500, 16 gb of ddr4, and I slapped a 1050 ti on it to make a budget gaming pc. I also got an ssd on it and installed windows 10 on it. Everything was fine until I booted up borderlands 3, I got an LowLevelFatalError Line 3455 and got a BSOD with the stop code of Critical process died then others of Memory Management. I tired other games and also recieved similar BSOD's. I check the Temps during the games and they look fine on the gpu. They also run really well. The PC can run fine in idle too.
I first tried running memtest86 and it said it passed, but I'm not sure I ran the test correctly. I updated all my drivers using Driver easy. I also investigated more on the Critical Process Died and forums have said it has something to do with the drivers? I'm not sure but I checked on windows system logs and most of every red warning symbol had something related to TMP? Idk what this is but alot of errors are related to that. I'm not sure where to go from here since the errors keep persisting.
I do want to mention that I installed windows 10 using an old USB I had so maybe it's that? Should I try a fresh install of Windows? I also wanted to ask if it could be a hardware issue? I did buy the gpu and overall pc used so it's a possibility, but everything does appear to be working fine apart from the BSOD's
Any help is appreciated

I 29f am a kind person, working in social work field. One thing I will say that is prob a huge red flag to guys is that I still live at home at my moms place. I have lived on my own but was back in school til recently which is why I am living at home til I save up for a few months. I have never had a committed relationship and it is really getting me down lately.
I am turning 30 in a couple months is getting me down bc I finally have my job sorted out, things are pretty good w my friends and family, my mental and physical health, but what I really want is a partner and to fall in love. Pretty much every guy sees me as just casual and the types of guys who go for me typically seek out younger girls. I look a lot younger than my age and so men will approach me thinking I am 21 then lose interest when they find out I am nearly 30. But even when I was younger, guys would lose interest quick or only pursue me for something casual. It makes me feel not good enough. I tend to overthink about my life dissatisfaction, but I know I would be happy with almost everything if I just had a positive relationship. Guys will ask me on a date and appear interested at first, compliment me a lot, then over a matter of days or weeks their interest drops, they start replying slower and it just fizzles out no matter how hard i try. This happens both on hinge and with guys I meet IRL ex. bars, through friends, etc. They always meet someone better looking and stop putting in effort with me.
I wanna give up and feel that I have missed the boat on finding love. I never am valued. maybe 1 guy in my whole life has treated me like I could be more than just a fling. I don't have too many problems having guys attracted to me but they never stay. I know I have good interpersonal skills as I am well liked by friends and colleagues, even strangers. Many of my friends are guys. But I cannot keep a guy's interest in me. Even guys who I have slept with but didn't want to date me will say "how do you not have a bf you are so cool, attractive, cute, funny etc". Yet they are not seeing that I would date them. They would sleep with me after some dates, tell me they dont want serious, then date another girl seriously the next week. its always like "Youre so great...for someone else...." I tend to get invested in 1 guy at a time only. But why does that have to be a bad thing? I value love and relationships more than money, career, etc. Yet I want a monogamous relationship so why is it impossible for me?
I feel cursed or something.