Tldr at bottom, but reading is much appreciated. Feel free to ask questions.
Until a couple weeks ago, I was in an open relationship with girl X (19F), one I wasn't particularly happy in. Mentally, sexually, all of the above. It was coming to an end, and wanted to get it over with during the summer.
A little over 2 months ago I met a girl (18F) (will now refer to as Y) at a bar and we kinda hit it off. We spent a bit of time with eachother, effectively going on dates. She knew I was in an open relationship and seemed cool with it, this might've been because she knew I wasn't happy in it and wouldn't last much longer.
Originally I wasn't keen on going back into a relationship, but as I got to know her she seemed relatively normal, outdoorsy, adventurous, confident and fun. On top of that she lived very close. Over the course of the next couple months she grew on me. This shoved me to break up the open relationship. So I did.
Since X was rather far (3+ hours drive), I spent 3 days with her to console and run things over with her, rather than show up, break up, and leave.
The issue arises in that I didn't tell Y why I was spending 3 days with X, and in those 3 days I contacted Y very little. Y got upset. I didn't realise this until today, when she told me that she was really upset those days while I was with X. She said I really set myself backwards, and she doesn't know if things are repairable but she's willing to try.
She said since I hadn't told her why I was spending the 3 days with X until afterwards, the damage had been done. She was very angry with me back when this happened but I never picked up on it. Said she almost blocked me altogether.
Despite that, I never really picked up on it until the last couple of days, where I started getting my doubts into how into me she was. It just felt like our honeymoon period had ended, but we were still going out on dates and having fun.
Really hating myself for how I managed things. Especially since she said even if I had told her at the beginning of the 3 days I spent with X that I was breaking up with her, that I'd be in a much better position.
I don't know what to do now. I don't believe that it's impossible I'll have Y like me as intensely as she did previous, but I don't know how do go about achieving that. I don't know if I should just try move on now or put effort into it in an attempt to win her feelings back.
Tldr: Left an open relationship with X to be committed with Y. Spent 3 days with X after breakup to console and be there for her. Didn't tell Y why I had spent 3 days with X, Y got really upset and felt like I got over her. Told her after the 3 days why but the damage had been done. Y is no longer really into me, but just into me, no longer wants to get in a relationship. She says it could be fixable. How do I fix it? Or do I just try move on?

My partner and I got into an argument not too long ago over text. (We are long distance for some context.)
Essentially what had happened is they had asked me for a shower picture. They had asked me many times and I promised to send them one but broke my promise. I explained to them that I simply didn't want to send one. We then got into an argument and they started saying that I lied, and broke my promise, and then mentioned something I'd said earlier that had hurt them. This earlier mention consisted of someone I had briefly communicated with when I was 11 on Roblox. This "someone" was way older than me, and I talked about it with my partner because we had mentioned e-dating briefly earlier. I did not talk about this in an attempt to make them jealous or hurt them, I didn't even realize what I was saying was disrespectful and going to affect them. They brought this up again later tonight as I had mentioned earlier, and said, "What if I talk about my ex?" And briefly talked about her. Not to an extreme degree, because our conversation shifted to something else. We eventually made up and I had to promise to send them a picture tomorrow night which I'm okay with.
Maybe I'm just emotionally immature that something like this bothers me, especially with the degree they try to "hurt" me. What really upsets me is the fact that they try to hurt me in the first place just to get "even" with me, it's not even what they do to try and hurt me.
I just feel like my partner is a very vengeful person. Whenever I do something that hurts them, they will try to do the exact thing but much worse. (Much worse as in something they know will affect me.)
I'm not sure what to do. The simple answer may be to communicate with my partner, but that is a struggle at times. I'm just looking for an outsider's opinion on the situation.
TL;DR: My partner and I got into a small fight over text because I didn't do what I promised I would do for them because I didn't want to. They then got upset with me and mentioned things I had done earlier in the day to hurt them, and attempted to hurt me back.

Hey Y'all,
I need to shoot some VFX plates, some on green screen, and I figured I'd look into some options to buy a camera to use over and over rather than rent all the time. Don't want to spend a fortune, though. Anyone have a good experience with one they want to share?

---- Minecraft Crash Report ----
// Daisy, daisy...
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Time: 2023-06-05, 9:07 p.m.
Description: Exception in server tick loop
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java.lang.NoClassDefFoundError: net/minecraftforge/common/capabilities/ForgeCapabilities

at com.minecolonies.api.tileentities.TileEntityRack.getCapability([TileEntityRack.java:434](https://TileEntityRack.java:434)) \~\[minecolonies-1.19.2-1.0.1429-BETA.jar%23122!/:1.19.2-1.0.1429-BETA\] {re:classloading} at net.minecraftforge.common.capabilities.ICapabilityProvider.getCapability([ICapabilityProvider.java:33](https://ICapabilityProvider.java:33)) \~\[forge-1.19-41.1.0-universal.jar%23151!/:?\] {re:computing\_frames,re:mixin,re:classloading} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.game.ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData$BlockEntityInfo.handler$zif000$sendBlockEntityCaps([ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.java:527](https://ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.java:527)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,re:classloading,pl:mixin:APP:supplementaries.mixins.json:ChunkHolderMixin,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.game.ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData$BlockEntityInfo.m\_195691\_([ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.java](https://ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.java)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,re:classloading,pl:mixin:APP:supplementaries.mixins.json:ChunkHolderMixin,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.game.ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.([ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.java:44](https://ClientboundLevelChunkPacketData.java:44)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.game.ClientboundLevelChunkWithLightPacket.([ClientboundLevelChunkWithLightPacket.java:24](https://ClientboundLevelChunkWithLightPacket.java:24)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading} at net.minecraft.server.level.ChunkMap.m\_183760\_([ChunkMap.java:1208](https://ChunkMap.java:1208)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.server.level.ChunkMap.m\_183754\_([ChunkMap.java:864](https://ChunkMap.java:864)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.server.level.ChunkMap.m\_140184\_([ChunkMap.java:1074](https://ChunkMap.java:1074)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.server.level.ServerChunkCache.m\_8385\_([ServerChunkCache.java:449](https://ServerChunkCache.java:449)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.server.network.ServerGamePacketListenerImpl.m\_7185\_([ServerGamePacketListenerImpl.java:893](https://ServerGamePacketListenerImpl.java:893)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:graveyard.mixins.json:ServerPlayNetworkHandlerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:nochatreports.mixins.json:MixinServerGamePacketListenerImpl,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.game.ServerboundMovePlayerPacket.m\_5797\_([ServerboundMovePlayerPacket.java:114](https://ServerboundMovePlayerPacket.java:114)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.game.ServerboundMovePlayerPacket$PosRot.m\_5797\_([ServerboundMovePlayerPacket.java:16](https://ServerboundMovePlayerPacket.java:16)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading} at net.minecraft.network.protocol.PacketUtils.m\_131356\_([PacketUtils.java:22](https://PacketUtils.java:22)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading} at [net.minecraft.server.TickTask.run](https://net.minecraft.server.TickTask.run)([TickTask.java:18](https://TickTask.java:18)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:classloading,re:mixin} at net.minecraft.util.thread.BlockableEventLoop.m\_6367\_([BlockableEventLoop.java:157](https://BlockableEventLoop.java:157)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:computing\_frames,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.util.thread.ReentrantBlockableEventLoop.m\_6367\_([ReentrantBlockableEventLoop.java:23](https://ReentrantBlockableEventLoop.java:23)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,re:computing\_frames,re:classloading} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_6367\_([MinecraftServer.java:763](https://MinecraftServer.java:763)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_6367\_([MinecraftServer.java:158](https://MinecraftServer.java:158)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.util.thread.BlockableEventLoop.m\_7245\_([BlockableEventLoop.java:131](https://BlockableEventLoop.java:131)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:computing\_frames,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_129961\_([MinecraftServer.java:746](https://MinecraftServer.java:746)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_7245\_([MinecraftServer.java:740](https://MinecraftServer.java:740)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.util.thread.BlockableEventLoop.m\_18701\_([BlockableEventLoop.java:140](https://BlockableEventLoop.java:140)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:computing\_frames,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_130012\_([MinecraftServer.java:726](https://MinecraftServer.java:726)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_130011\_([MinecraftServer.java:658](https://MinecraftServer.java:658)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.m\_177918\_([MinecraftServer.java:245](https://MinecraftServer.java:245)) \~\[server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar%23146!/:?\] {re:mixin,pl:accesstransformer:B,re:classloading,pl:accesstransformer:B,pl:mixin:APP:balm.mixins.json:MinecraftServerMixin,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:access.MinecraftServerAccess,pl:mixin:APP:byg.mixins.json:server.MixinMinecraftServer,pl:mixin:A} at [java.lang.Thread.run](https://java.lang.Thread.run)([Thread.java:833](https://Thread.java:833)) \[?:?\] {re:mixin} 

Caused by: java.lang.ClassNotFoundException: net.minecraftforge.common.capabilities.ForgeCapabilities

... 27 more 

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A detailed walkthrough of the error, its code path and all known details is as follows:
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-- System Details --
Details:

Minecraft Version: 1.19 Minecraft Version ID: 1.19 Operating System: Windows 11 (amd64) version 10.0 Java Version: [17.0.3.1](https://17.0.3.1), Oracle Corporation Java VM Version: Java HotSpot(TM) 64-Bit Server VM (mixed mode, sharing), Oracle Corporation Memory: 1644128720 bytes (1567 MiB) / 4395630592 bytes (4192 MiB) up to 17112760320 bytes (16320 MiB) CPUs: 20 Processor Vendor: GenuineIntel Processor Name: Intel(R) Core(TM) i9-10900K CPU @ 3.70GHz Identifier: Intel64 Family 6 Model 165 Stepping 5 Microarchitecture: unknown Frequency (GHz): 3.70 Number of physical packages: 1 Number of physical CPUs: 10 Number of logical CPUs: 20 Graphics card #0 name: NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3080 Graphics card #0 vendor: NVIDIA (0x10de) Graphics card #0 VRAM (MB): 4095.00 Graphics card #0 deviceId: 0x2216 Graphics card #0 versionInfo: DriverVersion=31.0.15.3203 Memory slot #0 capacity (MB): 32768.00 Memory slot #0 clockSpeed (GHz): 3.20 Memory slot #0 type: DDR4 Memory slot #1 capacity (MB): 32768.00 Memory slot #1 clockSpeed (GHz): 3.20 Memory slot #1 type: DDR4 Virtual memory max (MB): 69356.53 Virtual memory used (MB): 37577.40 Swap memory total (MB): 4096.00 Swap memory used (MB): 43.65 JVM Flags: 0 total; Server Running: true Player Count: 1 / 20; \[ServerPlayer\['ebonybow'/487, l='ServerLevel\[world\]', x=480.24, y=96.63, z=330.02\]\] Data Packs: vanilla, mod:elevatorid (incompatible), mod:terrablender (incompatible), mod:entangled (incompatible), mod:supermartijn642configlib (incompatible), mod:nochatreports (incompatible), mod:beautify (incompatible), mod:mcwdoors, mod:cfm (incompatible), mod:balm (incompatible), mod:jei (incompatible), mod:supermartijn642corelib (incompatible), mod:byg (incompatible), mod:naturalist, mod:shinyhorses (incompatible), mod:forge, mod:easy\_villagers (incompatible), mod:fastleafdecay, mod:waystones (incompatible), mod:geckolib3 (incompatible), mod:dungeons\_arise, mod:graveyard (incompatible), mod:tameablebeasts, mod:simply\_houses, mod:themissingvillages, mod:repurposed\_structures, mod:nfm (incompatible), mod:worldedit (incompatible), mod:decorative\_blocks (incompatible), mod:domum\_ornamentum, mod:incendium, mod:blockui, mod:lostcities (incompatible), mod:structurize, mod:minecolonies (incompatible), mod:terralith (incompatible), mod:imst, mod:hopo, mod:ctov (incompatible), mod:dreamland (incompatible), mod:moonlight (incompatible), mod:autoreglib (incompatible), mod:sereneseasons (incompatible), mod:dungeoncrawl, mod:quark (incompatible), mod:supplementaries (incompatible), mod:mcwlights, Supplementaries Generated Pack World Generation: Stable Is Modded: Definitely; Server brand changed to 'forge' Type: Dedicated Server (map\_server.txt) ModLauncher: 10.0.8+10.0.8+main.0ef7e830 ModLauncher launch target: forgeserver ModLauncher naming: srg ModLauncher services: mixin-0.8.5.jar mixin PLUGINSERVICE eventbus-6.0.0.jar eventbus PLUGINSERVICE fmlloader-1.19-41.1.0.jar slf4jfixer PLUGINSERVICE fmlloader-1.19-41.1.0.jar object\_holder\_definalize PLUGINSERVICE fmlloader-1.19-41.1.0.jar runtime\_enum\_extender PLUGINSERVICE fmlloader-1.19-41.1.0.jar capability\_token\_subclass PLUGINSERVICE accesstransformers-8.0.4.jar accesstransformer PLUGINSERVICE fmlloader-1.19-41.1.0.jar runtimedistcleaner PLUGINSERVICE modlauncher-10.0.8.jar mixin TRANSFORMATIONSERVICE modlauncher-10.0.8.jar fml TRANSFORMATIONSERVICE FML Language Providers: [email protected] [email protected] [email protected] Mod List: server-1.19-20220607.102129-srg.jar Minecraft minecraft 1.19 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE repurposed\_structures\_forge-6.1.3+1.19.jar Repurposed Structures repurposed\_structures 6.1.3+1.19 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE TerraBlender-forge-1.19-2.0.0.120.jar TerraBlender terrablender [2.0.0.120](https://2.0.0.120)DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE moonlight-1.19-2.0.15\_-\_Copy.jar Moonlight Library moonlight 1.19-2.0.15 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE entangled-1.3.13-forge-mc1.19.jar Entangled entangled 1.3.13 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE tameablebeasts-1.0.jar TameableBeasts tameablebeasts 1.0 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE supermartijn642configlib-1.1.6b-forge-mc1.19.jar SuperMartijn642's Config Librasupermartijn642configlib 1.1.6b DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE NoChatReports-FORGE-1.19-v1.2.3.jar No Chat Reports nochatreports 1.19-v1.2.3 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Beautify1.19-V.1.4.1Forge.jar Beautify beautify 1.4.1 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE jei-1.19-forge-11.1.1.239.jar Just Enough Items jei [11.1.1.239](https://11.1.1.239)DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE supermartijn642corelib-1.1.4-forge-mc1.19.jar SuperMartijn642's Core Lib supermartijn642corelib 1.1.4 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE The\_Graveyard\_1.11\_(FORGE)\_for\_1.19.jar The Graveyard graveyard 1.11 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE naturalist-forge-2.0.2-1.19.jar Naturalist naturalist 2.0.2 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE domum\_ornamentum-1.19-1.0.76-ALPHA-universal.jar Domum Ornamentum domum\_ornamentum 1.19-1.0.76-ALPHA DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Incendium\_v5.1.1.jar Incendium incendium 5.1.0 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE easy\_villagers-1.19-1.0.8.jar Easy Villagers easy\_villagers 1.19-1.0.8 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE blockui-1.19-0.0.64-ALPHA.jar UI Library Mod blockui 1.19-0.0.64-ALPHA DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE waystones-forge-1.19-11.1.0.jar Waystones waystones 11.1.0 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE AutoRegLib-1.8-54\_-\_Copy.jar AutoRegLib autoreglib 1.8-54 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE SereneSeasons-1.19-8.0.0.19\_-\_Copy.jar Serene Seasons sereneseasons 0.0NONE DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Dreamland-forge-1.19-1.1.0.1.jar Dreamland dreamland [1.1.0.1](https://1.1.0.1)DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE themissingvillages-2.0.0-1.19.2.jar The Missing Villages themissingvillages 2.0.0-1.19.2 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE lostcities-1.19-6.0.2.jar LostCities lostcities 1.19-6.0.2 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE elevatorid-1.19-1.8.6.jar Elevator Mod elevatorid 1.19-1.8.6 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Decorative+Blocks-forge-1.19.2-3.0.0.jar Decorative Blocks decorative\_blocks 3.0.0 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE DungeonCrawl-1.19-2.3.12\_-\_Copy.jar Dungeon Crawl dungeoncrawl 2.3.12 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE structurize-1.19.2-1.0.491-ALPHA.jar Structurize structurize 1.19.2-1.0.491-ALPHADONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE worldedit-mod-7.2.11-beta-02-dist.jar WorldEdit worldedit 7.2.11-beta-02+315c5DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE minecolonies-1.19.2-1.0.1429-BETA.jar MineColonies minecolonies 1.19.2-1.0.1429-BETADONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE mcw-doors-1.0.8forge-mc1.19.jar Macaw's Doors mcwdoors 1.0.8 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE cfm-7.0.0-pre34-1.19\_-\_Copy.jar MrCrayfish's Furniture Mod cfm 7.0.0-pre34 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE SimplyHouses-1.1.2.1-1.19-forge (2).jar Simply Houses simply\_houses 1.1.2.1-1.19 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE balm-4.5.3.jar Balm balm 4.5.3 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Terralith\_v2.3.1.jar Terralith terralith 0.0NONE DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Oh\_The\_Biomes\_Youll\_Go-forge-1.19-2.0.0.7.jar Oh The Biomes You'll Go byg [2.0.0.7](https://2.0.0.7)DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE nfm-2022.10.27-1.19.jar Nosiphus Furniture Mod nfm 2022.10.27 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE IMST\_2\_0\_1.jar Immersive Structure imst 2.0 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE ShinyHorses-1.19-1.2.jar Shiny Horses Forge - Enchantabshinyhorses 1.2 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE forge-1.19-41.1.0-universal.jar Forge forge 41.1.0 DONE Manifest: 84:ce:76:e8:45:35:e4:0e:63:86:df:47:59:80:0f:67:6c:c1:5f:6e:5f:4d:b3:54:47:1a:9f:7f:ed:5e:f2:90 Quark-3.3-368\_-\_Copy.jar Quark quark 3.3-368 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE HopoBetterMineshaft-\[1.19-1.19.3\]-1.1.6.jar HopoBetterMineshaft hopo 1.1.6 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE ctov-3.2.2.jar ChoiceTheorem's Overhauled Vilctov 3.2.2 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE FastLeafDecay-30.jar FastLeafDecay fastleafdecay 30 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE supplementaries-1.19-2.0.13\_-\_Copy.jar Supplementaries supplementaries 1.19-2.0.13 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE geckolib-forge-1.19-3.1.40.jar GeckoLib geckolib3 3.1.40 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE mcw-lights-1.0.5-mc1.19forge\_-\_Copy.jar Macaw's Lights and Lamps mcwlights 1.0.5 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE DungeonsArise-1.19-2.1.51-beta.jar When Dungeons Arise dungeons\_arise 2.1.51 DONE Manifest: NOSIGNATURE Crash Report UUID: 6d502e06-4cf2-409a-a44d-85bb77c4a1f6 FML: 41.1 Forge: net.minecraftforge:41.1.0 

I'm a Gossamer Gorilla 50 owner considering getting a Durston Kakwa 40. If anyone has experience with both packs, I'd love to hear about it. I like the Gorilla a lot (I've owned both a 40 and a 50), and it's always fit all of my gear easily (I've never regretted not buying a bigger pack, like the Mariposa).
Reasons why I'm considering the Kakwa:

• Waterproof fabric (I live in PNW)
• Load lifters and better weight carry in general. I have plans for desert hikes, with long, 5+ liter water carries, and I've found that the Gorilla maxes out between 25-30 lbs.

Reasons I'm hesitant:

• Gorilla mesh front pocket is great, and I'm afraid I'll miss it. It handles tons of random stuff no problem. I've read that the Kakwa pocket is pretty tight.
• Bear canister carry. I have a Bearikade Weekender, which fits well inside my Gorilla or else tucked under the top closure straps. I don't know if the tapered shape of the Kakwa will handle it as well inside. And I'm worried how secure the Y strap is for strapping it to the top (better than the Gorilla? worse?) Or maybe I should consider the Kakwa 55 for this purpose?
• No loop to hook on a hydration bladder. I like the bladder to hang down vertically inside against my back for best weight distribution. I suppose I could also sew on a loop, if that's feasible.

Any wisdom here would be much appreciated!

I got contacts the other day and i didnt wear makeup to the appointment (my mom suggested i didnt and i was super upset about it but in hindsight im glad i didnt). Since then ive been wondering ab if i have to do anything differently then i had the horrendous idea that wearing eyeliner on my waterline would be a no no. I wear either black or white crayon-y eyeliner (im sorry i dont know correct terminology ig lol) every time i do my makeup and i have for a while now, its like a must for me. But do i need to worry ab it transferring onto my contacts? This is probably a ridiculous question but id rather be safe then sorry lol

Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab is undoubtedly a powerhouse, if not the powerhouse of the indie perfume world. Who else (like me) came to indie perfume at least in part from the hat-tip to BPAL in the acknowledgements of Erin Morgenstern's The Night Circus? I actually still have never ordered from BPAL directly, but I have amassed a fair few samples and decants thanks to Ajevie, Arae, and swaps. And it's always fun to read through the names and notes of each new collection release!
My general thoughts about BPAL are these: they clearly know what they're doing and have an enormous library of notes for them to draw upon. Sometimes new releases feel very much like they just sort of reached into a dark cupboard and combined whatever bottles they happened to grab (particularly the Ménages à Trois), and yet sometimes the unexpected combinations are genius. (Sometimes they are very much not.) BPAL's perfumes tend to work okay for me, but they're not one of my top houses (that list is made up of Nui Cobalt, Poesie, Arcana, and NAVA), although a few BPAL scents have turned out to be holy grails for me (Drow Yoga Instructor, Mouse's Long and Sad Tale). Oddly enough, their florals often tend not to work well on my skin, which is hugely disappointing especially since I deliberately sought out a lot of their ethereal-sounding florals and then a lot of them failed for me. However, their sandalwood incense is astounding, and I love their sweet pea, plum, and pink sandalwood notes.
My preferences: I especially love snuggly scents, incense, golden amber, cardamom, black tea, beeswax, non-gourmand vanillas, and white florals (though sadly I am allergic to lilies and jasmine doesn’t usually work on me). I don't like hay, overly sweet gourmands, excessive musk, leather, dragon’s blood, patchouli, labdanum, or any really dark scents in general.
So here are 27 reviews, organized roughly by category:

Ambers

And With My Spade I Delfe My Landys [Snow-capped golden amber with snowdrop, winter gardenia, hellebore, and iris] - First off, I'm a scholar of Renaissance music, with a real fondness for medieval Books of Hours. Second, I get obsessed with snowdrops in the late winter when the cottagecore-y, hobbit-y, linen-enthusiast circles of Instagram that I haunt fill with photos of snowdrops in February. So how could I pass this one up? I get golden amber and floral as anticipated, and also (just on application, then it recedes) a very resinous, citrusy, herbal scent that I can't quite place - rosemary? Pine? Some combination of the two? It's also a bit powdery (iris has a tendency to pull powdery on me, and as a lover of powdery florals that's just fine with me). And With My Spade is so very reminiscent of those first tentative flowers pushing up through whatever snow still lays on the ground and it's absolutely bonkers wonderful for that transitional season between winter and spring, which is of course what I bought it for.
Bastet [Luxuriant amber, warm Egyptian musk, fierce saffron and soft myrrh, almond, cardamom and golden lotus] - On application, that golden amber reads as powdery honey. As it dries, a sophisticated Egyptian musk and a hint of lotus floral emerge. This perfume is not really gourmand despite the notes. I wish the incense or spices had more presence. As it is, this perfume is nice but it feels a little thin.
Cathedral [Venerable and solemn: the scent of incense smoke wafting through an ancient church. A true ecclesiastical blend of pure resins] - Ohhh, it's pretty. Golden and resinous with only the slightest hint of smokiness. These resins feel closer to tree sap than a dark or spiced incense, so while it's not like any church I've ever experienced, Cathedral is gorgeous and uplifting. I got one scant wear out of my sniffie and would definitely consider getting another sample.
Golden Priapus [A truly carnal, energetic men’s blend: vanilla and amber with juniper, rosewood and white pine] - My experience with this was so puzzling that I went to look up reviews on the BPAL forum, which only puzzled me further! On me, Golden Priapus is an extremely resinous, rosewood-y and tree sap-y golden amber not altogether dissimilar to Hexennacht Baltic Amber [Thick rivulets of golden amber, pinus succinifera, cedarwood, jammy fir absolute, oakmoss absolute, tree moss, verdant musk, cardamom, balsam, lightning-scorched ancient boughs] but with more tree resin and less verdant evergreen. "Carnal" and "energetic" it is not - so off to the forum, where I consistently saw reviews calling this "masculine" and even "a more masculine Snake Oil". I've sniffed Snake Oil (just in the vial, not on my skin) and it had a very red musk + spices vibe, and I don't really see a similarity to Golden Priapus. Nor would I call this "masculine" unless you're the sort who views resinous, sappy golden amber as a more stereotypically men's scent.
The Sun Rising [Three shades of tawny amber radiating with orange blossom, Italian yellow bergamot, saffron, and mandarin] - Golden amber and citrus, with a lot of the saffron. I tested what little was left in the free sniffie in late August, and it was absolutely perfect for the heat of late summer, though I don't think I'll bother buying more because the citrus overpowers the amber a bit (especially the prominent bergamot, not my favorite note).
My Wise Beauty [A simple scent for a quiet memory: white sandalwood and sweet amber] - Resinous golden amber and creamy sandalwood…and vanilla frosting? The "sweet" part of "sweet amber" isn't just flowery adjective but actual description. My Wise Beauty is simple and straightforward but really pretty, wrapping me in a blanket of coziness. The sugary frosting aspect will keep me from seeking out more when this little decant is exhausted, but I will happily wear what's here.

Florals

Alice [Milk and honey with rose, carnation and bergamot] - Soft florals, with the carnation a little more present than the rose. I'm always wary of milk or dairy notes, but the milk and honey here simply serve to mute the rose and carnation, both of which can go strongly green or spicy. I don't dislike this perfume, but as a person who doesn't much love these particular floral notes (I'm much more into white florals, especially tuberose and tiare), it's a little bit boring for me and I ended up destashing this one.
Juliet [Sweet pea with stargazer lily, calla lily, heliotrope, honeysuckle, white musk and a touch of fresh pear] - Disappointingly nondescript. Nonspecific white florals and a hint of pear sweetness. It's dainty and feminine but not memorable. For sweet pea, I'll get my fix with Mouse's Long and Sad Tale.
Lady Amalthea [A luminous white winter musk with lilac, wisteria, white chocolate, white mint, and tuberose] - When it first goes on, the different elements - the florals (I definitely get tuberose, and another floral that must be wisteria, which I'm unfamiliar with), the camphoric spearmint, the white chocolate, and the musk just barely brushing animalic - fight with each other, but it quickly dries down to a much more seamless whole, pretty winter florals over a comforting and Poesie-like white chocolate musky base layer.
Maiden [A gentle vision of purity, goodness and virtue: white tea, carnation and Damask Rose] - It's a lovely combination of rose and carnation, much like Alice, with a slight hint of the green stems but mostly the fragrant flowers (and without the sharp spiciness carnation can sometimes get). On application when it was extremely and uniformly floral, I thought that this perfume needed some vanilla or amber or sandalwood to give it dimension, but as it dried, the white tea emerged to do exactly that - it's not a bitter, astringent white tea, but more the feeling of steam rising from a pale tea in a china teacup. Still, I'm ambivalent at best about rose and carnation, so I destashed it.
Mouse's Long and Sad Tale [Vanilla, two ambers, sweet pea and white sandalwood] - This one is so pretty, delicately sweet and floral, and a staple of my spring perfumes! (Meanwhile, Husband says it smells like talc powder, acknowledging that I like exactly that kind of thing.) I don't get amber or sandalwood individually, but they lend the vanilla a mellowness and warmth. Several hours later, it lingers as a warm sandalwood-amber-vanilla. I love this one so much that I sought out a decant of Mouse's Long and Sad Pumpkin, which I'm saving to try this fall.
Pele [Muguet and Hawaiian white ginger enveloped by warm, damp tropical blooms] - So pretty! This is entirely a white floral perfume, tiare backed by tuberose (I think? A second white floral, definitely). If there's any ginger in there, I don't notice it. I adore tiare so I am entirely happy, though I can also acknowledge that this perfume lacks depth or complexity. I love this and other tropical white florals for summer.
Zorya Polunochnaya [Pale amber and ambergris, gossamer vanilla, moonflower, and white tobacco petals] - A crowd favorite, and I wanted to see what everyone was talking about! This has a sweet + salty, white amber + pink cotton candy effect. The slight tinge of butter and salt to this white amber (no doubt amplified by the ambergris) reminds me of the Alkemia white ambers, Luminae especially. I actually don't really get any florals from this one, which is a pity because I love the moonflower in Nui Cobalt Crown of Hekate [Moonflower and myrrh over shining white amber on a pillow of sheer vanilla] though I find the myrrh in that one quite overpowering. I had been hoping this would be a nice alternative. As Zorya P starts to dry, the tobacco starts to emerge and replaces the initial pink cotton candy effect. It's gentle as tobacco goes, but still more than I would prefer. All in all, it's been really fun to try this one since everyone's been talking about it - and it is indeed just as "gossamer" as the notes description says, though it has a really surprising longevity! But it's not ultimately going to find a place in my collection, since I have other, equally ethereal vanillas that I prefer, and I'm really not into tobacco.

Lavender

TKO [No official notes - people agree that it's lavender and marshmallow] - Yep, lavender and marshmallow. A particularly herbal, astringent lavender, which cuts beautifully through the sweet powderiness of the marshmallow. I'm also getting a sort of dusty background incense, which makes this scent remind me of Stereoplasm Lavender Scarab [Golden amber, English lavender, blackberry, incense], but with marshmallow instead of golden amber
A Place of Seeing [Pink rosebuds and lavender with amber-gilded sandalwood, vanilla bean, bergamot, and marshmallow] - It goes on with the same sleepy lavender as in TKO, made more detailed and complex with the addition of the gentle pink rose petals and the amber-sandalwood-vanilla base. It wafts around me a haze of femininity. As it dries, the marshmallow emerges too, and it becomes obvious that this is literally TKO with the addition of rose and those warm base notes. Very pretty!
The Air and the Ether [Gentle, almost imperceptible, permeating all things: pale amber vibrating with ambergris and a thread of lavender] - Lavender, one that sits midway between herbal and floral, and skin musk. It's an incredibly skin-hugging scent, but has excellent longevity.
On Wednesday, I Will Promise You a Phantom [A gust of luminous lavender, the spectral skin musk of a gently curving ghostly hand, a melodic twang of wisteria and ylang ylang, and a murmur of myrrh-touched vanilla husk] - Another "sleepy lavender" scent - I have several of these in my perfume collection and I love them all. This is a really ghostly, ethereal scent, wafting elusively around me. On Wednesday is primarily a lavender + vanilla scent, but with a bit of complexity. The lavender is the herbal sort, but it's so soft that it's not at all astringent, and the faintest hint of the other florals makes the lavender sometimes smell like the floral sort. Adding just a touch of myrrh was a really clever choice on their part - there's so little that it doesn't make it smell earthy or smoky, but it grounds it and gives it complexity and richness. It's really quite a lovely, ghostly scent.

Fruits

Drow Yoga Instructor [Wild plum, indigo lavender, and a tranquil tendril of sandalwood incense] - A dusty and purple scent with an absolutely gorgeous gentle incense note (I love sandalwood incense!) backed up by lavender flowers (sort of midway between floral and herbal), and a plum note that is intense fruity candy for about 2 seconds when applied, and then merely makes this scent truly purple. When I say "dusty", I actually mean it - after about half an hour, the sandalwood incense really does start to include an actual dust note. This is a stunning scent for yoga practice, or any day you want a gentle purple incense scent. It is the yoga perfume for me, gorgeous and meditative and containing possibly my favorite-ever incense note (sorry, NCD cathedral incense, I promise I love you too!). I don't wear this one as often as I'd like to because I also have other yoga perfumes and I like to rotate through them, but honestly this is my holy grail yoga scent. Even though it has low longevity on me; it'll last through a yoga class and then some, and that's really all I need from it. I'm seriously considering buying a full bottle, which (since I'm a person who full-sizes hardly anything) tells you something about how essential it is for my collection.
Painted Scars [Wild plum and white sandalwood with lavender bud, white musk, and blackberry wine] - I snapped up a half-ml decant of this as soon as I saw the notes, because it reminded me so much of both their Drow Yoga Instructor and also Stereoplasm Lavender Scarab [Golden amber, English lavender, blackberry, incense], both scents I really like. This is a much brighter, fruitier scent than Drow Yoga Instructor, the plum and blackberry combination going on as brash fruity candy (I don't love this stage). But it does dry down to a very calming scent, those dark fruits joined by a bit of grounding lavender and sandalwood. Unlike the two others I thought this would be similar to, Painted Scars noticeably lacks incense, but it definitely lives in their same family. I quite enjoy it (once it has dried down) but won't need to seek out more. I do wonder if layering this with Drow Yoga Instructor might improve the latter's longevity, which would be thrilling if it works.
Titania [A nocturnal bounty of fae dew-kissed petals and pale fruits: white grape, white peach, iced pear, musk rose, sweet pea, moonflower and snapdragon] - It goes on with a blast of fruits too sweet and fruit snack-like, mostly that white grape, but as it sits the florals suddenly emerge with a great whack of petals, and at this point I'm very puzzled because the particular combination of fruit and indistinct white florals reminds me a great deal of mint toothpaste. Another one that's a nice idea but doesn't really work for me on execution.

Greenery

Elf [Pale golden musk, honeycomb, amber, parma violet, hawthorne bark, aspen leaf, forest lily, life everlasting, white moss, and a hint of wild berry] - Wet on my skin, it's pine needles seen through a soft, gauzy veil - it's a strange but lovely effect, the pine needles muted by fruit and amber. Dry, the pine needles disappear entirely, and the perfume is an indistinct but really pretty mix of greenery, floral, berry-like fruit, and glowing golden amber. The overall effect is pretty muted, and by this I don't mean that it lacks throw, just that all of the elements are soft and gentle. It does feel undeniably elfin. I thought it would be a spring perfume but then never wore it the next spring, and when I tried it in early summer, it was much too tree-ish for me - but Husband loved it and happily took ownership.

Beeswax

The Lights of Men's Lives [The wax and smoke of millions upon millions of candles illuminating the walls of Death’s shadowy cave: some tall, straight, and strong, blazing with the fire of life, others dim and guttering] - I love beeswax notes and was excited to try a perfume that I'd read is the perfect epitome of a lit beeswax candle. It's a honeyed beeswax with an unmistakable candle-ness to it even though I don't smell any smoke. It's an extremely atmospheric scent and one that is very situational for me, not for daily wear. I especially love it for Good Friday.
The Little Owl [Tonka bean and vetiver with brown sandalwood, oak bark, almond, and beeswax] - Not going to lie; I was completely suckered in by the cuteness of the name and concept. This scent feels extremely Nui Cobalt-ish: woodsy but also cuddly, featuring honey + almond (like Silver Fox, Chionophilia, and so on) and also some earthier notes, and the beeswax is strong. This is absolutely going to be a fall perfume for me.

Miscellaneous

Baobhan Sith [Grapefruit, white tea, apple blossom and ginger] - I'm not really one for ginger-heavy scents, and somehow my skin always seems to amp ginger notes even if, as in this one, they're last on the list. (Isn't that always the way?) This one doesn't go on with too much ginger, but even just fifteen minutes later it becomes primarily ginger on me, backed with the astringency of acidic grapefruit citrus and white tea leaves. I really love apple blossom but I don't get much if any here; it's overwhelmed by the more assertive notes. Another half hour later, Baobhan Sith is actually nearly gone (or perhaps I just grow anosmic to it?). Meanwhile, at that stage, Husband tells me he can still smell it (so yeah, I've probably just gone anosmic), and that it reminds him of the lime oil in the furniture wax he uses - and he says he quite likes this perfume on me. Overall, it's a lovely idea, and I still think a white tea + apple blossom scent would be just fabulous but this is not it for me.
Bliss in the Pumpkin Patch [There's all manner of shenanigans in this year's pumpkin patch! Pumpkin'ized hybrids of GC BPAL scents abound! BLISS: A shot of pure, self-indulgent euphoria! A scent that is very, very wicked in its own way: the serotonin-slathered scent of pure milk chocolate.] - Oddly enough, I don't actually get milk chocolate; I get cinnamon and espresso over a creamy, foody pumpkin - all told, a bit too gourmand for me, but it was tremendous fun to try. (Less fun: the cocoa solids had separated from the oil, which also left unappealing chocolatey smears on my wrists that I later had to go wash off.)
Lust [Uncontrollable passion and insatiable sexual desire: red musk, patchouli, ylang ylang and myrrh] - This combination of red musk, patch, and myrrh smells to me a lot like dragon's blood. Husband says he likes this one but wouldn't wear it himself; meanwhile it's very very not for me and I didn't bother skin-testing it, red musk and patch being two of my death notes.
Vasilissa [Creamy skin musk and blushing pink musk with soft sandalwood, white amber, dutiful myrrh, and star jasmine] - My immediate response: "Ooh, pretty!" And even Husband graced it with a "yeah, that's nice." A dainty, feminine, slightly floral but mostly pink sandalwood scent with just enough resin and earthy myrrh underneath to ground it.
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Personally...

I absolutely positively cannot do without Drow Yoga Instructor and Mouse's Sad and Long Tale. Other BPAL favorites include A Place of Seeing and Vasilissa, and probably also The Little Owl (we'll see how much I reach for it in autumn). I'm sad that most of the floral ones I tried don't really work for me. I can also commend BPAL for their pretty and often very clever approach to gauzy, lavender-forward scents.
Thank you to everyone who sold or gifted me these samples and decants!

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Hey team, I'm looking at getting a Miami Heat earned edition jersey for a family member, they generally wear a medium but I noticed the sizing for youth XL is around the same. I know the youth size doesn't have the collectors numbers but that isn't an issue and the youth sizes are way easier to find.
Just thought I'd ask the knowledgeable community here what the main difference in sizing would be between the two (M and yXL)

It physically hurts. All I want to do is go drink. It's both anxiety and chest tension. I'm trying to combat loneliness. I'm a neurodivergent, divorced, white male in his 30's. Trying to make friends at this stage is super tough. I just want it not to hurt anymore. It's painful to exist feeling so alone. Thanks to this sub, I went sober for over a year. I know it's possible but I had a partner then that I could bounce ideas, feelings, fears, and anxieties. Friends are hard enough, friends to talk to about this seems impossible. I heard something recently that I liked, "Don't let anybody fill your cup." I need to remind myself that nobody else can live my life for me. I'd rather help anybody here, but tonight I think I need help myself. Thanks y'all. I love you guys.

Don't read ahead, don't watch ahead, just go down the path, or turn back now. It doesn't matter either way. I made a playlist with my bipolar ass... I'm not sure how long it is or I'd warn you, i wanna say around 3 hours, it's all music. I'm gonna post it here, and then start it and see how long it takes to get thru the whole thing. Then I'll update the beginning. Have fun, wear headphones to have the same experience that I had. <3
Instructions: next paragraph to be read after preceeding song, but, honestly, I don't know why I even bothered trying to make a note about something because all anybodies going to get out of this post is extreme mental illness, but like, it might make you feel something, i dunno. Sorry you guys, I'm chill. Have a good one, homies. Listen to some music if youre bored. It's just my sillyhead mind on full display. I wanted to play Danny Brown so many times, that just wasn't what the story was about this time. Yall stay safe. Lemme know if you need anything. Take your meds. ✌️🤙
(This is going to be long but its all optional) What's up homies! I'm diagnosed as Bipolar 1. It was funny, like, in highschool, so like 2008 - 2012, anyways, I knew that the rock band Avenged Sevenfold were angels. The lead singer is Gabriel, and the other guys are other Archangels, that's why they do the naming scheme that they do, Johnny Christ, Snynsyter Gates, M Shadows, ect, because they're some ancient dorks and that's the kind of nerd trash we like to pull. So I forgot about that because I pushed it away because like, um, hello, not a moron.
Then a couple years go by, I'm on psychedelics at my friend's house. Long story short, I have a conversation with Gabriel, I give them a song, I tell them to put a Mexican restaurant song on their album if the conversation is real, and I left it at that. So a couple of months go by, their new album comes out. The song that I gave to the voice on the trip is on the album, here, I'll link it to you. It's this one. https://youtu.be/5N-tTKERxj8
So I like wrote it about myself and what I needed to do and stuff... like it was a message to me. And avenged sevenfold, they've got a ton of angel imagery in all of their stuff, I mean their symbol, the deathbat, which is a skull with wings. Then there's their music, I'll link some of the more obvious stuff.
https://youtu.be/7bDg7n-chhU << Exhibit A https://youtu.be/HIRNdveLnJI << get it? https://youtu.be/94bGzWyHbu0 << I mean watch this video.
That's all I'll show you of a7x... look into them though, if you're in any way curious. I could be way off the mark, but that's what happened... it is what it is. I'm not worried about it, you shouldn't be either. But like, that's my band. Those are my bros. Or, you know, I have something. But I don't live my life like I'm sick: I live my life like I'm going to change yours. Because that's what I do.
So like... haha, this is gonna be hilarious. So you guys know all about receiving messages in songs type of deal.... me and Red Velvet and Everglow have been doing that since like... I dunno... 2014? Whenever everglow came out... but, basically, Red Velvet are uh... my girlfriends, back home, and they all came down with me to be my message system to wake me up. Because I got woken up, I remembered who I was in 2016. After that, it's just been messages in Kpop songs keeping me afloat. I'll show you. So Red Velvet has been sending me messages for a long time. Here's probably one of the most impactful ones. Remember, from your perspective, you're Archangel Michael, and you've planned all of this. You've put these people where they needed to be. You've designed the whole set. So to receive the messages is no big deal, right? So here, check it. I'm actually gonna watch this one with you guys, because it always hypes me up. https://youtu.be/c9RzZpV460k
Ok, so, maybe you can see a little bit why I'm at least getting screwed with a little bit, you see the lyrics? It's like they're talking straight to me man. And its like, kpop has been nudging me along, no matter what mood I'm in in reality or whatever place I'm at, the right song always comes out at the right time. For instance I was struggling with myself on whether or not I was going to move forward with any of this. This is my choice, I'm not suffering from a maladiction. I can choose to tell people or not tell people, I choose to share, I want connection. So anyways, look at this one, it was exactly what i needed to hear: https://youtu.be/JUJ3Pq74H4c
I know, I know... kpop girls aren't telling me to come pick them up. They are driving me to do something, though, however small that ever may be. And there's this thing I've always done to show people that I'm an angel without actually telling them. I put my thumbs together and spread my hands out, it's like code. And remember, these are all coming out at specific times. Watch this one, look at all the symbolism: https://youtu.be/R9At2ICm4LQ.
Man, I don't even know what to play after that one. Thats pretty much it you guys, that's basically all I wanted to show you, everything else is just going to be extra. It's all a complete waste of time anyways. I'll show you some more... let's see, there's other bands. There's Everglow. Like how it works is, we get everything ready in Heaven (we've got time), and then we like funnel everything to the earth to be put in when and where we will it to. Angels are like mega consciousness, we write scripts and, whatever, you're not going to believe me anyways. Let's see.
https://youtu.be/Z3RA7bi5FUM << fantastic song, really great message. I just don't think everglow is talking about themselves here. I know, I know, this is High Octane Narcicism if it's ever existed... if I'm such a narcicist then why are you such a sweet lil puppy dog huh, I could just numnumnum, oh why yes I could, I could just numnumnum all on those wittwe toesies, oh yes I could. Alright, one more everglow and we'll move on. Everglows a pirate, you say? Hmmm, what could that be code for... https://youtu.be/-2X-pL06628
I get it... but at least you guys aren't gonna judge me for it, because you guys can relate, right? Don't yall have stuff like this in your own lives? Anyways, there's one line in particular in this aespa song that gets me... see if you can figure out which one is the one messing with my head https://youtu.be/WPdWvnAAurg
Because like... I lost my memories and... it's whatever. Let's wrap back around to another Red Velvet video. You know how like, it's scripted? And like, I'm controlling the page? Well check out the symbolism and more obvious stuff in this next one... maybe you won't see it... it's obvious to me, but, well, you know 🤪 https://youtu.be/XGdbaEDVWp0
There's just... I dont know what to play next... that's really it, basically. I know it's dumb, but, I mean, I'm undettered, you know? Like I don't mind being classified as mentally ill, it's fine. I can still work something out. Let's see... dang feel my rhythm.... see they're all timed.... I'm like a sleeper agent haha and they had to wake me up but... it's stupid, I know.
https://youtu.be/xGr53sCo62c << this ones just a phenomenal song
Here's another one, straight up about God. Is Red Velvet a Christian band? I thought they were just general pop. https://youtu.be/YBnGBb1wg98
You cant take it away from me. I'm stronger now than I was when I didn't know. I fell for anything. Now I know which side I'm on. I don't listen to human beings about reality bro... I dont care how many degrees you've got. I'm God's Son, what are you going to do about it? I'm mentally ill? No I'm not. What else? I'm a narcicist? I love you, what else you got. I'm a troll? Go ahead.
My point is, I'm as mentally ill as you want me to be. If you want another patient... another sad case to be kept away, here I am. If you want me to do what I'm supposed to do, and free the earth, then I'll do that instead. You all are my guests, please, do whatever you wish with me. Let's see, what else should we play. Should I go? I guess I'll just show you guys some more cool songs while I'm here. This next ones a bop, I'm gonna listen to it too. I've been watching all the kpop vids with you.
Check this one out https://youtu.be/I3dezFzsNss
This one goes hard https://youtu.be/7OSSI5hgQVok
What about this one, you guys like adtr? https://youtu.be/Pn-6eOxnEMI
Yo you guys wanna listen to some Capitol Records while I'm gone? Me and my mom are going thrifting for chic new straight jackets. https://youtu.be/6CtVIHbi6bE
This ones awesome https://youtu.be/wapOqjQ4r_M
This ones super dope for those of us that have been in and out of the mental hospital, man, it sucks, they never have a guitar, I get crazier while I'm in there haha my guitar is like water to me, if I don't have access to it I'm like, gosh, like I can go on vacation or whatever it's just... I'm designed to play the guitar, you know what I mean? Here https://youtu.be/94bGzWyHbu0
https://youtu.be/7bDg7n-chhU << absolute classic.
Yo https://youtu.be/WumCI56iYUk
https://youtu.be/DWaB4PXCwFU
https://youtu.be/IHS3qJdxefY they really do be some boiz
This ones super cool, I love a7x they've always been my favorite band https://youtu.be/iJ-WsnaYDCg Tonight or Crime Stoppers: local lunatic "je" finally imprisoned today after, what some are calling, the funniest whoopee cushion prank gone SEXUAAL that we've ever seen. It was a fail but my God, the agility on that panda bear.
https://youtu.be/Z5NoQg8LdDk << these guys are so cool
Yo this ones hard too https://youtu.be/i7UkKEEGgAQ
This one goes hard https://youtu.be/wLdlw46Ru9I
https://youtu.be/lCPwR7R4hlA yuhhh it stayin hard bro, love chillin with yall
Have we already listened to ptv? I know we haven't heard this song yet https://youtu.be/icXUkIfZxyg
Sleeping with sirens is a cool band too, that's one of, that's the other guys band or whatever. They're not both in one band. https://youtu.be/_UwWYtLWEZg
This ones short but it's kind of cool https://youtu.be/xIQfK2fRNAg
Oh this one too https://youtu.be/yd4xjiRRVrI
https://youtu.be/nDcD62i0MpI
https://youtu.be/36stRPPIy2w this ones cool
https://youtu.be/bQ1yhsYr-hg interesting
This is terrifying, but in like, a good guys kind of way https://youtu.be/21dNBtcDzUg
https://youtu.be/4-NHVWecj2U
Yooooo fr tho like whaaaaat like no way dude https://youtu.be/Os_heh8vPfs
Yoooo this one you guys https://youtu.be/iTgcp1oDk2M
This one dude https://youtu.be/DcLfutPGouk
This one is also fire my dudes, you guys don't have to stay for these, I'm just playing music https://youtu.be/XA2YEHn-A8Q
This was one of their firsts https://youtu.be/0rtV5esQT6I
This ones pretty new, it's got a good beat https://youtu.be/vPwaXytZcgI
I haven't heard this one a ton of times, but nayeon is so cool https://youtu.be/f6YDKF0LVWw
https://youtu.be/rRgTMs_bGuI haha this ones so weird, like what are they even talking about?
I just wanna listen to this one one more time, then imma head out. I should probably be doing something with my day instead of posting random videos on like, random subreddits. But I guess this one isn't random, because I have bipolar too. Well, bipolar 1, too. Bipolar 1, as well. Also. I, you and i; gosh man, you guys should see me, I'm always swinging for the fences. Can't; in a crowd dude, my gosh bro, you wouldn't believe the carnage. Like upset me, you know what I mean? Like see what happens. Rrrrrgghh...... rrrrRRRRRGGHHHHH RADLEBLARABLEDABLABLE ... oh, right, alright, peace homies. Hope we all get feeling better soon. https://youtu.be/R9At2ICm4LQ
Ok I guess there's time for at least one more, https://youtu.be/QRN12TaTFlU is sooo cute.
I haven't actually heard this one many times, let's check it out, she's cute https://youtu.be/ShGVCembq70
This is another I haven't heard a whole lot of, I'm just going off recommended vids for a lot of these. https://youtu.be/SVgkNW2cENQ
How did I forget about this one, this one, mm, dude, this ones got like pop you know what I mean like, they bop it they're not crunching it like do you know what im saying? Like the whole thing is like a ring tone you know what I mean? https://youtu.be/EkSOOiMDGiY
Yo you guyssssss girls generation man, you guys wanna go on a girls generation run? 서녀시대 you know what my 글s are? Face it 남자, you're dead in 이믈을. You're going 아래 and face it, 퉁퉁해수퍼맨, https://youtu.be/F4-SxcCO5d0
I really like this song, but, because my daughter's name is Nova, but my ex won't let me show it to her because of my - you know, whatever. So like, she doesn't even know me. It's not a huge deal, noone does. I mean if you watch the videos you do, but, whatever I'm gonna roll in a minute. I had one what was it .. plub. Brb. Oh yeah duh holy you guys see what you're dealing with right now, grape jelly, boys and girls, spoonfuls, big heaping spoonfuls of grape jelly are now all over the walls of your poor, sweet, innocent subreddit: and behold, doth I flingeth mine spoon, mommy. Doth I swingeth mine spoon wi https://youtu.be/Z6FPJOgfCkc
Oo first few seconds of this one are a vibe, yall check this one out with me https://youtu.be/zvBNoSjlKG0
Dang, that was honestly really pretty. Ok, here's one more. https://youtu.be/0xdB_vo4r2c this ones so pretty have you guys heard this one?
I've honestly never heard this one before, let's see if it's cool https://youtu.be/eNmL4JiGxZQ
Man, turns out it was a total bop. Well guys I guess that wraps things up for me. If you stayed for any of the music I hope you had a good time, I don't really have anybody to DJ for so I thought maybe fellow bipolars would be able to relate to some of these songs. Anyways i hope all you guys have a massively tubular dube tube, my dude form, whoa man, get nebulous on it my waveform, hawhoa, my guy is riding the wave my dude, ahwha, my dude, he is hitting only the gnarest of half bowl wave cuts my energy saw. I should go. Uhhh I guess I'll go see Hannah and nova, I can work on the homework that I missed later tonight. Sure is rough running 3 jobs you guys; server, student, and speaker for bipolar awareness. I honestly can't think of a more noble cause. Huh. Yeah so 🫱🤌🤙👌🫷👌🤏✌️👇👅👅🧠🧠🧠🫀🫀🫀🫁🫁🫁🦷🦴👀👁🫃😇👽🙈🙉🤖🤖👾👾💫💥💢💯🖤🗯💨🕳🧡🧡🧡🩷❤️💜🩵💙🩵💜🩵💙💙💚💛💚💙🩵💙💚💙🩵💜🩵💙💜🩵💙💚🩵💜💙💚💚 peaceee, yall stay lazy.
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Howdy, y'all.
I have a friend who is on disability and has limited mobility. He can't really get around very well, but he can support and scoot himself about with a little cart. The problem is that he can't balance himself on a scooter or a traditional bike, and he can't afford one of those powered chairs. A little powered bike or trike would be perfect for him, but he's heavier than the weight limit on most of them.
I gather he doesn't want to be in a wheelchair because he finds it insulting, and I can definitely understand that. I think if he had a bike that would work for him, he would have a lot more freedom and he wouldn't have to be cooped up in the house so much. We've both considered a cheap motorcycle and he likes the little Vespa scooters, but neither of us can afford one and he'd probably hurt himself on a motorcycle. He's a nice guy, but he's a big guy, and that presents some difficulties.
Similarly, my partner has limited mobility due to a different set of health concerns, and that limits how far she can go when we're out doing stuff. We'd like to go see the National Mall some day, but that's a lot of walking and a lot of stress on her joints.
I looked at tandem bikes, but most of them seem to top out at around 300-400 lbs, which seems a bit light for two adults. What happens if we clip a curb? Would the frame bend or break? Or worse, what happens if we fall and she gets hurt?
If I could find something like a trike or a rickshaw which is rated for adults, then my friend could pedal himself to his mailbox or around his neighborhood, and I'd be able to pedal my partner around the National Mall. It wouldn't be a perfect fix, but it would extend both of their ranges considerably.
Most of the rickshaws and such that I've seen online seem to be rated for an adult with child passengers. They're not rated to carry 450 lbs of two adults, and I have no idea where I'd be able to find a bike or trike that's capable of carrying a 300+ lb person.
Any advice?

Heya there! I'm Kiara, Kiki, or Kia! I'm a lesbian trans girl, and to keep it brief, I'm just looking for something longterm and serious, I just want to settle down with someone and just have my reason to wake up yknow?
I play a variety of video games! I'm a savage raider in FF14, I love to play League, Apex, Valorant, various amounts of RPGs, JRPGs, VNs, and like, if I could stream some stuff to you too if I'm in the mood, I'd adore that. I love love love POP Music! JB, The Weeknd, KPOP, Sam Smith, Doja Cat, Ariana Grande, & so so much more :3
I'm super into manga, as its faster for me to read something than just focus on an anime show, though I could focus if I had someone watching with me :3 but I like HxH, DbZ, Villainess, Dragon Maid, FMAB, & so much more.
I really adore writing! I'm a bit of a sappy romantic poet and like roleplay very much, so if you wanna write our sapphic ships together then I'm mega down~
As a partner I try my best to respect boundaries and learning each other's limits and or supporting the best I can. I'm really into matching PFP's, bio's, constant calls, sleep calls, and all that stuff to abide us until y'know, we can meet IRL!
Other than that, if I sound appealing to you, feel free to DM! I don't bite unless wanted haha. Though, I'd much prefer to talk on discord, so send me a lil intro to yourself and your tag! and just as a question to ask to make sure you read everything, what's your favorite color?

2022 Model Y owner here. This issue has been plaguing me for quite some time and I finally want to just get it resolved.
When I start the car up, Spotify is never ready to just play music/podcasts. The app opens, I can see my playlists, but when I select one it either won't load songs, or it won't play songs that are visible on the screen, tapping them does nothing.
Sometimes this problem fixes itself after driving for a few minutes, sometimes it takes much longer. In all instances, the car has full connection (hell even in my garage with Wifi access), and it doesn't matter either way. The only way to start playing music is to use my phone and bluetooth.
I can't imagine I'm the only one with this issue, I'd be grateful for any help here from someone who has found a fix for this.

 I’ve always heard “move away Atleast once for awhile, from your home town” - now I see why. You can literally have nothing- but a “community” around you & other people who have merely been at most “associates” through life/ or a season, will have the most hurtful-negative-degrading to say. 99% of the hate comes from people I have never hurt- intentionally or unintentionally/known personally or not , they simply do it bc they’re hurting & somehow for them it’s easier to ride off what successes or downfalls they think someone else has happening to them, then to put themselves out there. I joined Tiktok Sep 2020, my page was at 50K by Christmas/New Years. Throughout the 1st 2 yrs of TT residing at my other residence, which I made very known- I received 1-2 public disagreements from a friend turned enemy on TT I’ve never met, over something I posted. Last June a local associate of a couple years through someone I know closely- decided to turn on me bc I misquoted bagged chicken by $2-4 dollars, because I trusted a man’s word when I hadn’t been out for months & during inflation !! We had been fine prior- I cleaned her home(even called her beautiful in the video, I asked her could I take/post) , made her a free pregnancy shirt, trusted her with my daughter & youngest while I had Trustin & with some deep heart felt emotions during my pregnancy.…and to be turned on over something so municipal 🤷‍♀️, it’s astonishing truthfully. Another associate incident is last year 7-8 months ago our county endured some unfortunate losses. I posted/shared/commented on those losses as most in our county did. Simply only stating the truths on how awakening and heartbreaking it was to even think about. I have always been expressive with my words, and never until that point had I been hated for being awoken to even a short period of “we’re not promised tomorrow” or “ it could happen to anyone @ anytime”. Until those moments happen - time just flys us by…. An even afterwards ~ the individuals who it dosen’t directly affect it flys by after a period of routine again. Realizing that brought on 5 locals actively keeping me in the topic of conversation, going further beyond that. 

As anyone I WILL take any measures to protect-My family & I. I have allowed months of such to go on, thinking-hoping-giving the benefit of the doubt, but guess what….. I never have said a name on video nor live, the original copies show & transcripts from my platforms show what I posted when I posted it- which can’t be denied…. I then had individuals from other states willfully bring names to me- names local individuals have also informed me keeps our name in their mouth or fingers writing about us. If complete truths were stated- if boundaries hadn’t been crossed- the things happening wouldn’t be- so like any one - I’m doing what I have to. 

As I continue to exercise my 1st amendment of the constitution- speaking no names of anyone other then my family on my platforms, growing my platforms for people who may find inspiration-joy-inclusion from my content/story/pain/growth/family, I will be watchful & have Unknown eyes 👀 watch for me also. In due time- if I have blocked you or comment on said post asking you to remove it…. & You continue to make post defaming me, slandering me, stating opinions instead of complete facts… I will then have to put your name instead on the papers, being shared around. Remember you’re using a platform if you’re seeing this- we’re ALL PUBLIC RECORD ! 

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All my (28F) life, I've always had anxiety (and depression), especially when it comes to relationships. I was always jealous of females who would talk to my partners during my teenage and young adult years. I acknowledged the toxicity in that, and wanted to better myself, so I did.
In September of 2019, I moved across the country (NC -> WA) to live with my boyfriend (27M) at the time, and we were together for almost three years. During that time, we adopted two cats and took one in from outside. A year and a half into our relationship we decided to get a house. We weren't married, and he was in the military, so he bought the house, and my name wasn't on the mortgage. Two years into our relationship, he made friends with two people online (younger female and older male, if that matters) and they all played video games together a lot. I was super happy for my ex, because he didn't really have a lot of friends.
The anxious thoughts trickled into the back of my head, but I pushed them away, because I told myself I would be better. I wanted to do better for me and for our relationship. I would occasionally ask for reassurance, of course, because I still struggled from time to time. And he would always tell me basically what I wanted to hear; everything was fine and nothing was going on.
One day while my ex and I were playing an online game (that has an in-game party chat audio, and we were also on Discord)(we had separate gaming rooms), I was unaware at first, but he had gotten a phone call from the girl and muted himself on Discord but not on the in-game party chat, and the way he spoke with her was a little more than friendly. It was only after a few times of me "responding" to him and getting no response, that I knew he was talking to someone else. And it took me less than a second to realize that I was 99% sure it was her, after hearing the way he was talking. Apparently something was bothering her and he was consoling her. On the brink of angry tears, I stormed over and demanded an answer as to who it was, and what was going on. He told me it was her, but denied there being any feelings or that anything was going on, that she was just going through a really hard time and needed a friend, blah-blah-blah. And I chose to believe him.
Another time maybe a week or two after that, we had a pretty large discussion one time that i needed reassurance and went as far as to degrade the girl by saying that he wouldn't be with her because of "her size" and that he "could hear her breathing heavily on the mic." That kind of raised some flags, because I know when people go into denial, they'll say things like that. But again, I turned a blind eye, and chose to believe him.
I just wanted to show him that I trusted him for his word. Bad mistake on my part.
Deep down I still always had a gut feeling about them. I tried to push it away, but it never truly went away.
My ex, his two friends, and I all stream(ed) on Twitch. You can make money off streaming (they only pay out if you hit at least a $100 threshold by the end of the month, and you get paid on the 15th of every month I believe), and it automatically saves your previous broadcasts for up to 7 or 14 days (I can't remember). My ex and I were on a streaming hiatus, but his female friend streamed. Occasionally I would pull up a past stream of hers and listen to the conversation between the two of them.
One morning in early May '22, after my ex went to work, I pulled up one of her past streams and was listening, and I hear them talking about him getting out of the military in a year and other normal things like that. She asked him about what he was planning to do with the house once he got out and he said something about keeping it and collecting equity for a little while. She then replies, "but, you live with your ex."
Mind you, we NEVER said ANYTHING about breaking up. We told each other we loved each other on a regular basis, y'know, normal relationship things. So there was no established break up. We were still together, but apparently not according to him when talking to her about us.
I continued to listen to more of their conversations. About how he would send her "sexy messages," and she would obnoxiously say how hot he was for doing certain things on the game. And I think that was feeding his ego, made him feel better about himself.
Everything shattered inside me. I was an emotional wreck.
I texted him that we needed to talk. He tried calling, asking what was going on, things like that, but I refused to tell him anything. I knew if I told him anything, it would've given him time to come up with some lame lies to tell me to weasel his way out of the whole thing.
When he got back home (he came home from work early), we started talking. Not about the incident at first. But he told me he felt like things weren't the best between us, he "cried" (at this point, I'm not sure that it was even real), I cried.
And then we talked about the incident. His reasoning was that it felt like there was just about nothing left between us, that it felt like I didn't love him anymore. I never meant to make him feel like that. He may have been saying that truthfully, or that may have been a poor, made-up excuse for what he did. But throughout our relationship I constantly told him I loved him, and occasionally would try to do nice things for him, like buy him a small gift at the store if it made me think of him.
He also confessed to it being two other women as well, including an ex that I'd also had suspicions about.
There was also talk about whether she knew we were actually together or not. He once told me that the girl saw my profile and "thought [I was] pretty." He then (after we had talked about the incident) said that I guess she had noticed I had taken my relationship info off my bio on Twitch. Which puzzled me; if she had noticed that it was on there prior, did that mean that she knew we were actually together? I couldn't tell if it was him lying or her being a homewrecker, or both.
I will say that towards the end of our relationship, we were both burnt out. Tired of existing. We didn't keep up with cleaning the house and really only ate take-out/delivery, so that definitely didn't help. But I never wanted to give up on us. I still wanted to be with him. I knew we were just going through a rough patch, or so I thought.
For the following few weeks after the incident, I was consistently nauseous, I vomited a few times, and food seemed unappealing, which is very strange for me; I'm a foodie. I didn't feel like doing anything except laying in bed - the only bed in the house - the one we shared.
We went through a limbo stage, not knowing if we should stay together or split up. After speaking with his mother about it (for advice) she recommended that we split up but work on each other, and if we decided to get back together, then it would happen.
Part of my depression/anxiety stemmed from worrying if I was going to be able to bring the cats back to NC with me. I wasn't financially able to live on my own, and my parents have always welcomed me with open arms if I needed to come back, no questions asked. In the past, maybe a few years before moving to WA, they wouldn't let me have/keep a cat. So I was so worried that they wouldn't let me keep my boys. I had grown so close to them, I couldn't stand to part with them. They're like my children, as I don't have any.
My ex was willing to let me stay for a long as I needed, which I appreciated greatly. I wasn't ready to tell my parents about the incident, because I knew my mother would book the next flight out and scoop me up. And mentally I couldn't handle the thought of being told I couldn't bring my boys back with me. So I withheld it from them for about a month.
Once I told them, they had no issues with me bringing the boys home with me. They knew the bond I'd created with them. That was a huge weight off my chest and shoulders.
He helped me pack, and back home I went. I had to leave a few things behind (including a couple of packed boxes), as I was only taking my '16 Ford Fusion across the country. He agreed to sending me the boxes later on.
Fast forward to the end of last August. It would've almost been our three year anniversary. One of my boys, the first one my ex and I adopted, had to go to an emergency vet and at the end, we (both) decided euthanasia was the best course of action. I had him cremated the next day, and got his ashes back in a beautiful metal urn. I paid for the vet visit put of pocket, as well as the cremation. He helped cover a small portion of the cremation.
He had pet insurance on the boys, so I asked if the vet visit could be reimbursed by the insurance company. I sent him the paperwork that they needed, and played the waiting game on if it would be approved or not.
January of this year, I sent him money for the shipping of the second box.
Early February I reached out again, and he said the insurance company approved it for the entire amount and that he was waiting on them to send the check.
Towards the end of February, I reached out yet again to ask about the status, he said he would send me the money back as he could. He said he needed it to fix the transmission on a truck he'd been using. I'm a little peeved at this point. That was MY MONEY. He could've at least given me a heads up, or even asked. Is it that hard to be a decent, considerate human being?
After trying to talk to him multiple times, mid-March rolls around and I ask him to send at least SOME of the money. He said that he would send some to me when he got paid from Twitch. So I waited some more.
But that was the last time I'd get a message from him.
I went as far as to pop into a live stream of his and ask why he hasn't responded to me, and got blatantly ignored.
I have no idea what happened, why he all of a sudden stopped responding to me. To my knowledge, I did nothing wrong. He's the one who cheated on me. And then decides to steal money I sent him to ship my belongings, that we agreed on him sending, and the money that was spent at the vet office visit that I paid for.
I'm so frustrated, so infuriated. I would never have done such a thing to him, even after everything he had done to me prior. I do not deserve this.
And I can't seem to let any of it go.
I'm now in a relationship with someone else, and we currently live together.
I'm still so angry at my ex, and the infidelity in my past relationship has left me anxious in this relationship. I feel as though I'm not adequate enough. My self-esteem is shot. I'm on edge just about every day.
I don't want to be like that. It's not fair to me and it certainly isn't fair to my current partner.
And that also angers me. Not only has my ex screwed me over financially, but mentally/emotionally as well.
I wish that he would just pay me back and send me the rest of my belongings, and that I could somehow miraculously get over the infidelity. But sadly, that's not how reality is.
Can anyone offer any assistance with... how to fix my brain I guess?
I know this was an e x t r e m e l y long post, so if you stuck around to read it all, I appreciate you.