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Rank Song
1 Michael Jackson - Ghosts
2 afi - Miseria Cantare - The Beginning
3 a-ha - Take On Me
4 Journey - Separate Ways (Worlds Apart)
5 Pearl Jam - Future Days
6 Evanescence - Bring Me To Life
7 Alter Bridge - The Other Side
8 Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody
9 Killswitch Engaged - This Fire
10 Motorhead - the game
11 Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
12 Michael Jackson - Earth Song
13 Michael Jackson - Remember the Time
14 Saliva - I Walk Alone
15 Linkin’ Park - Crawling
16 Michael Jackson - Stranger In Moscow
17 Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror
18 Michael Jackson - Bad
19 Imagine Dragons & JID - Enemy
20 Michael Jackson - Blood On The Dance Floor
21 BANKS - The Devil
22 Eminem - Godzilla ft. Juice WRLD
23 Elton John - Goodbye Yellow Brick Road
24 Billie Eilish, Khalid - lovely
25 Luniz - I Got 5 On It
26 Dr. Dre - ETA (with Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes & Anderson .Paak)
27 Michael Jackson - They Don’t Care About Us
28 grandson & Jessie Reyez - Rain
29 The Cranberries - Zombie
30 Linkin Park - BURN IT DOWN
31 Bruno Mars, Anderson .Paak, Silk Sonic - Smokin Out The Window
32 Earth, Wind & Fire - September
33 Doja Cat - Woman
34 Linkin Park - Numb
35 Shakespears Sister - Stay
36 Michael Jackson - The Way You Make Me Feel
37 Britney Spears - Toxic
38 Michael Jackson - Billie Jean
39 Michael Jackson - Beat It
40 Michael Jackson - Thriller
41 Michael Jackson - Smooth Criminal
42 Bray Wyatt – Shatter
43 Doja Cat - Vegas
44 Linkin Park - In The End
45 Dr. Dre - The Scenic Route (with Rick Ross & Anderson .Paak)
46 Imagine Dragons - Natural
47 Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson - Scream
48 Imagine Dragons - Cutthroat
49 Coolio - Gangsta's Paradise (feat. L.V.)
50 Nirvana - Something In The Way
51 Limp Bizkit - Rollin'
52 Katy Perry - California Gurls ft. Snoop Dogg
53 Doja Cat ft. SZA - Kiss Me More
54 Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
55 Post Malone, Swae Lee - Sunflower )
56 Bring Me The Horizon - Can You Feel My Heart
57 Living Colour - Cult Of Personality (Official Video)
58 Queen - Killer Queen
59 Queen - Another One Bites the Dust
60 BANKS - Skinnydipped
61 Doja Cat - Say So
62 Michael Jackson - In the Closet
63 Rev Theory - Voices
64 Disney - We Don't Talk About Bruno
65 Michael Jackson - Rock With You
66 Britney Spears - Circus
67 Madison Beer - I Have Never Felt More Alive
68 Dua Lipa - Physical
69 Eminem - River ft. Ed Sheeran
70 Jefferson Airplane - White Rabbit
71 Imagine Dragons - Bones
72 Britney Spears - Oops!...I Did It Again
73 Lil Nas X - MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name)
74 Doja Cat - Get Into It (Yuh)
75 Dua Lipa - New Rules
76 Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra)
77 Michael Jackson - Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
78 Michael Jackson - Jam
79 Eminem - Lose Yourself
80 Queen - I Want to Break Free
81 Childish Gambino - This Is America
82 Joji - Glimpse of Us
83 Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong
84 Hamilton - The Room Where It Happens
85 Snoop Dogg - Gin And Juice
86 Michael Jackson - Heal The World
87 Louis Armstrong - What A Wonderful World
88 NF - The Search
89 Hamilton - Satisfied
90 Ren - Money Game
91 Queen - We Are The Champions nn
92 Tech N9ne - Face Off (feat. Joey Cool, King Iso & Dwayne Johnson)
93 Jessica Darrow - Surface Pressure
94 Michael Jackson - Money
95 Motionless In White - Demons in Your Dreams
96 Joji - SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK
97 BANKS - Gimme (Official Video)
98 Dua Lipa - Break My Heart (Official Video)
99 Idina Menzel, AURORA - Into the Unknown (From Frozen 2)
100 Warriors (ft. Imagine Dragons) Worlds 2014 - League of Legends
101 Dr. Dre - The Next Episode (Official Music Video) ft. Snoop Dogg, Kurupt, Nate Dogg
102 Eminem - Venom
103 Céline Dion - Ashes (from Deadpool 2 Motion Picture Soundtrack)
104 I Want You Back - The Jackson 5
105 Imagine Dragons - Sharks (Official Music Video)
106 Joan Jett & The Blackhearts Bad Reputation - Official Music Video (1983)
107 Guns N' Roses - Welcome To The Jungle
108 FOZZY - Judas (OFFICIAL VIDEO)
109 Waterproof Blonde - Just Close Your Eyes
110 Sam B - Who do you Voodoo, Bitch
111 Skillet - Legendary
112 Billie Eilish - bury a friend
113 Ren - Money Game part 2
114 Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
115 Kevin Sherwood - Where Are We Going?
116 twenty one pilots - Heathens
117 Eminem - Without Me
118 Heavy - Linkin Park (feat. Kiiara)
119 Lady Gaga - Paparazzi
120 As The World Caves In - Sarah Cothran
121 Dr. Dre - Still D.R.E. ft. Snoop Dogg
122 Obie Trice ft. Eminem & Dr Dre - Shit hits the fan
123 Eminem - Big Weenie
124 Michael Jackson - Black Or White
125 SZA - Kill Bill Feat. Doja Cat
126 Clean Bandit - Symphony (feat. Zara Larsson)
127 Dua Lipa - Levitating Featuring DaBaby
128 Imagine Dragons - Believer
129 Mario Judah - Die Very Rough
130 Dua Lipa - IDGAF
131 Sabrina Carpenter - Thumbs
132 Ed Sheeran - Bad Habits
133 Imagine Dragons - Radioactive
134 Ariana Grande - thank u, next
135 D'LOURDES - How Did You Get So Good?
136 Queen - We Will Rock You
137 Imagine Dragons - Thunder
138 Eminem - White America
139 Olivia Rodrigo - good 4 u
140 Lorde - Royals
141 Billie Eilish - bad guy
142 Wiz Khalifa - See You Again ft. Charlie Puth
143 Leonard Cohen - Hallelujah
144 Michael Jackson - Who Is It
145 Hamilton - We Know
146 Michael Jackson - Speed Demon
147 BAD BUNNY - CHAMBEA
148 K/DA - MORE ft. Madison Beer, (G)I-DLE, Lexie Liu, Jaira Burns, Seraphine
149 Shaman’s Harvest - Broken Dreams
150 Michael Jackson - I Just Can't Stop Loving You
151 Skillet - Hero
152 Michael Jackson - Leave Me Alone
153 Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons w/ Logic & Ty Dolla $ign ft X Ambassadors - Sucker for Pain
154 Ava Max - Sweet but Psycho
155 RISE (ft. The Glitch Mob, Mako, and The Word Alive)
156 Downstait - Kingdom
157 Hamilton - Say No To This
158 Eminem - Survival
159 Backstreet Boys - I Want It That Way
160 Alter Bridge - Metalingus
161 Britney Spears - ...Baby One More Time
162 Michael Jackson - Dirty Diana
163 Michael Jackson - P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)
164 Super Smash Bros. Ultimate Main Theme - Lifelight
165 PinkPantheress, Ice Spice - Boy’s a liar Pt. 2
166 Bee Gees - Stayin' Alive
167 Motorhead - line in the sand (Evolution)
168 K/DA - POP/STARS (ft. Madison Beer, (G)I-DLE, Jaira Burns)
169 Dua Lipa - Don't Start Now
170 Sam Smith, Kim Petras - Unholy
171 Imagine Dragons - Bad Liar
172 Ed Sheeran - Beautiful People (feat. Khalid)
173 Imagine Dragons - Birds
174 BANKS - Deadend
175 Mark Crozer and The Rels - Broken Out In Love
176 NWA - Gangsta Gangsta
177 Bon Jovi - Livin' On A Prayer
178 Toto - Africa
179 Michael Jackson - Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough
180 Ariana Grande - 7 rings
181 Eric Reprid - Vam
182 Imagine Dragons - Demons
183 Halsey - Without Me
184 Calvin Harris, Dua Lipa - One Kiss
185 Mark Ronson - Uptown Funk ft. Bruno Mars
186 Jim Johnston - Domination
187 K/DA - DRUM GO DUM ft. Aluna, Wolftyla, Bekuh BOOM
188 Lil Candypaint & Bhad Bhabie - 22 (Remix)
189 Dr. Dre - Gospel (with Eminem)
190 Lady Gaga - Applause
191 Shawn Mendes, Camila Cabello - Señorita
192 Billie Eilish - when the party's over
193 Phoenix (ft. Cailin Russo and Chrissy Costanza)
194 K/DA - I’LL SHOW YOU ft. TWICE, Bekuh BOOM, Annika Wells
195 Idina Menzel, Evan Rachel Wood - Show Yourself
196 Ash Costello - Brutality
197 The Gentle Men - Obsession
198 Imagine Dragons - Whatever It Takes
199 Demi Lovato - Sorry Not Sorry
200 Ed Sheeran - Perfect
201 BANKS - Beggin For Thread
202 2WEI and Edda Hayes - Warriors
203 Queen - Don't Stop Me Now
204 Dr. Dre ft. Snoop Dogg - Nuthin' But A G Thang
205 Fall Out Boy - Centuries
206 The Greatest Showman Cast - The Greatest Show
207 Lady Gaga, Ariana Grande - Rain On Me
208 Valerie Broussard - Awaken
209 Eminem - Rap God
210 The Weeknd - Blinding Lights
211 PVRIS - Burn It All Down
212 Fall Out Boy - My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light Em Up) (Part 1)
213 Michael Jackson - Will You Be There
214 K/DA - THE BADDEST ft. (G)I-DLE, Bea Miller, Wolftyla
215 twenty one pilots - Stressed Out
216 Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World
217 K/DA - VILLAIN ft. Madison Beer and Kim Petras
218 Loren Allred - Never Enough
219 Carly Rae Jepsen - Call Me Maybe
220 One Direction - Drag Me Down
221 Endeverafter - No More Words
222 Eminem - Fall
223 Zendaya, Zac Efron - Rewrite The Stars
224 Lil Nas X - Old Town Road ft. Billy Ray Cyrus
225 Disney - Remember Me
226 Bone Thugs N Harmony - 1st of tha Month
227 Lukas Graham - 7 Years
228 Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody
229 Ed Sheeran - Shape of You
230 Camila Cabello - Havana ft. Young Thug
231 Selena Gomez, Marshmello - Wolves
232 ZAYN - Dusk Till Dawn ft. Sia
233 The Greatest Showman Cast - This Is Me
234 Lewis Capaldi - Someone You Loved
235 Lil Nas X - STAR WALKIN'
236 Dove Cameron - If Only
237 U.S.A. For Africa - We Are the World
238 Dr. Dre - Fallin Up (with Thurz & Cocoa Sarai)
239 Tyler, the Creator - SORRY NOT SORRY
240 Nicki Taylor - Worlds Collide
241 Taylor Swift - Blank Space
242 Maroon 5 - Girls Like You ft. Cardi B
243 The Gentle Men - 2019 Guy
244 The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
245 Eminem ft. Rihanna - The Monster
246 Charlie Puth - Attention
247 Bruno Mars - Grenade
248 Queen - Radio Ga Ga (Official Video)
249 Julia Michaels - What A Time ft. Niall Horan
250 The Greatest Showman Cast - A Million Dreams
251 Rihanna - Umbrella ft. JAY-Z
252 Lady Gaga - Poker Face
253 Clean Bandit - Rockabye feat. Sean Paul & Anne-Marie
254 Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna
255 Sam Smith - I'm Not The Only One
256 The Chainsmokers - Closer ft. Halsey
257 Eminem - Not Afraid
258 BAD BUNNY - BOOKER T
259 Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do
260 Lady Gaga, Bradley Cooper - Shallow
261 David Guetta - Titanium ft. Sia
262 E-40 - Captain Save A Hoe ft. The Click, D-Shot, B-Legit, Suga T
263 Sofia Carson - Love Is The Name
264 Christina Perri - A Thousand Years
265 Maroon 5 - Moves Like Jagger ft. Christina Aguilera
266 Against The Current - Legends Never Die
267 Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers
268 Abba - Dancing Queen
269 Eminem - My Name Is
270 Shawn Mendes - Stitches
271 Malia J - Smells Like Teen Spirit
272 One Direction - What Makes You Beautiful
273 ZAYN, Taylor Swift - I Don’t Wanna Live Forever
274 Lil Nas X - Panini
275 Fergie - Glamorous ft. Ludacris
276 Ke$ha - TiK ToK
277 Sabrina Carpenter - Can't Blame a Girl for Trying
278 Shawn Mendes - Treat You Better
279 Shawn Mendes - There's Nothing Holdin' Me Back
280 Marshmello & Anne-Marie - FRIENDS
281 Pitbull - Timber ft. Ke$ha
282 CORPSE - E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY LIFE! ft. Savage Ga$p
283 Hudson Mohawke - Cbat

I (30 m) recently started a paid subscription on Match.com. A couple days ago on the site, I saw a woman a couple years younger than me who I had known from my high school (a K-12 private Christian school in Florida). More specifically, she and I had worked at the school's summer camp waaaay back in 2012 (the year after I graduated), and I remember thinking she was really nice—and cute! But unfortunately, I was attending a college up in New York at the time. So in my mind, it would have made no sense for me to try and pursue anything with her. I was kind of bummed, but oh well.
Anyways, I have since moved back home to Florida, so I was thrilled to see that she was still around, and single. So, I shot her a short message the other day on Match... before I realized that she had a free account, and thus likely couldn’t even see my message (and might not have even been able to see my profile pic, aside from a blurred image). Not to mention that she didn’t even view my profile.
So I found her on Facebook (we have several mutual friends) and sent her this message:“Hey! I just saw you on Match lol. Not sure if you remember me, but I went to Northside. Hope you’ve been well!”I know that sometimes Fb puts messages from non-Fb-friends in a “requests” foldedoesn’t necessarily show them easily in the inbox, so I sent her a friend request too in hopes that she would see my message. Wellll, I noticed yesterday that she had rejected my friend request. 😕 And of course Fb still didn’t show my message as “Seen,” leading me to believe that she probably forgot who I was/had no idea I had messaged her, either on Match or Fb.
Later yesterday afternoon as I was browsing Plenty of Fish, I coincidentally saw her on there too! I “liked” her and sent her the following message:
“Hey! I just realized you didn’t accept my friend request on Fb. 😬 Not sure if you saw my message or not there (sometimes Fb sends [sic] hides messages from someone until you are friends with them), but just in case you didn’t, I’m [Boober_Bill]; I think we both worked at the [insert school name here] summer camp back in 2012? I thought you were really nice and attractive back then, and was glad to see you are still around town!
I just wasn’t sure if maybe you didn’t recognize me(?) Orrr if you just don’t like me for some reason, no worries at all. But in case you simply didn’t see my message, or didn’t remember me: I moved back to FL from NY, and am looking for a serious relationship. And I just thought I’d reach out. I would love to get to know you, maybe grab a bite or a drink sometime if you would be interested?
I’m also currently deconstructing my Christian faith (leaning towards agnosticism) and am in the process of changing in various ways; I was happy to see you’re non-religious. Anyways, I didn’t mean to bother you- sorry if I did. I won’t reach out anymore if I don’t hear anything, but I just wanted you to know that I’m interested. Hope all is well with you, and I would love to hear from you! -[Boober_Bill]”
I’m not usually that forward on dating sites/apps—usually I admittedly just send a brief “Hey”/smalltalk message, unless something in particular stands out to me. But in this case I was just really excited to see this woman who I used to have a mini crush on all those years ago, and I was thrilled that she popped up on POF and thus gave me one more chance to hopefully get a message to her, assuming that she didn’t see my Fb message.
Now is the time when I should probably mention my anxiety/OCD: I have suffered from it since high school, and it sucks. My mind has a seemingly limitless capacity to ponder “what if” thoughts, constantly having doubts about what I believe, what I like, who I am as a person, what I should have done, what I shouldn’t have done, the questions of life, etc.
Seeing her friend request rejection yesterday basically gave me an anxiety attack, so keep in mind that that’s the frame of mind I was in when I wrote the above POF message. I waited with bated breath all yesterday, trying to calm myself down, while at the same time my mind was flooded with a million second-thoughts about what I should have done differently. I kept obsessively checking POF to see if she had been online (and thus seen hopefully my message), while at the same time I kept re-reading my message and critiquing it, wondering if I should have left out x line, or if I should have worded y differently.
She didn’t get on the site for the rest of yesterday, but today I noticed she had gone online, and that she had viewed my profile. So, at least I’m 99% sure at this point that she’s probably read my message. Annnd… No response.
It is what it is, and I would love it if she messages me, but I feel like there’s no hope at this point. And honestly, I just feel really bad. I can’t help but feel super awkward, or like some sort of creep. I mean, it doesn’t help that when I briefly explained the situation to my little cousin last night, and she told me:
“Yeah some people just aren’t meant for you. I’d say bullet dodged for you. But definitely be cautious over messaging someone just because it can come off aggressive. Not that you meant it to of course but, as a woman, it can be a bit intimidating.”
😩 I mean, if I wasn’t already feeling like a creep, I was after reading that. I explained myself better to her, and told her that my line of thought was (1) she likely can’t even see that I messaged her on Match, because of her free account, (2) it doesn’t say that my Fb message was “Seen,” (3) POF is mostly free, so if I message her there then at least it’s a guarantee that she’ll see, (4) I told her in my message on POF that it was totally fine if she wasn’t interested, and that I wouldn’t message her any more, but that I just wasn’t sure whether she saw that I messaged her, or not. I mean, I’ve definitely been in the opposite situation before on some of these dating sites (like Match, before I paid for a subscription!), where I had people message me, but then I wasn’t able to see who it was or able to even read their message, because the site wanted me to pay for that. Which is dumb. So anyways, I just assumed that that could have been the case here, and I didn’t want to give up until I had made sure that my message at least got to her.
But of course now my OCD mind is second-guessing everything, especially since it seems my POF message didn’t go over as I had hoped. Heck, now my OCD even has me wondering “what if” I have some other condition, like autism or Aspergers or something—just because I keep feeling so awkward and weird and vulnerable after having reached out to her like that. Of course, I’m obviously not going to message her again, but it just sucks. Admittedly, I think part of the issue is that I get my hopes up too easily and I also get attached too easily, which sets myself up for crushing disappointment. But I don’t know how to help that.
Not sure why I’m even posting this here. Thoughts, suggestions, advice, reassurance? I don’t mean to be a bother. Anyways, thanks a lot for reading.

I (30 m) recently started a paid subscription on Match.com. A couple days ago on the site, I saw a woman a couple years younger than me who I had known from my high school (a K-12 private Christian school in Florida). More specifically, she and I had worked at the school's summer camp waaaay back in 2012 (the year after I graduated), and I remember thinking she was really nice—and cute! But unfortunately, I was attending a college up in New York at the time. So in my mind, it would have made no sense for me to try and pursue anything with her. I was kind of bummed, but oh well.
Anyways, I have since moved back home to Florida, so I was thrilled to see that she was still around, and single. So, I shot her a short message the other day on Match... before I realized that she had a free account, and thus likely couldn’t even see my message (and might not have even been able to see my profile pic, aside from a blurred image). Not to mention that she didn’t even view my profile.
So I found her on Facebook (we have several mutual friends) and sent her this message:“Hey! I just saw you on Match lol. Not sure if you remember me, but I went to Northside. Hope you’ve been well!”I know that sometimes Fb puts messages from non-Fb-friends in a “requests” foldedoesn’t necessarily show them easily in the inbox, so I sent her a friend request too in hopes that she would see my message. Wellll, I noticed yesterday that she had rejected my friend request. 😕 And of course Fb still didn’t show my message as “Seen,” leading me to believe that she probably forgot who I was/had no idea I had messaged her, either on Match or Fb.
Later yesterday afternoon as I was browsing Plenty of Fish, I coincidentally saw her on there too! I “liked” her and sent her the following message:
“Hey! I just realized you didn’t accept my friend request on Fb. 😬 Not sure if you saw my message or not there (sometimes Fb sends [sic] hides messages from someone until you are friends with them), but just in case you didn’t, I’m [Boober_Bill]; I think we both worked at the [insert school name here] summer camp back in 2012? I thought you were really nice and attractive back then, and was glad to see you are still around town!
I just wasn’t sure if maybe you didn’t recognize me(?) Orrr if you just don’t like me for some reason, no worries at all. But in case you simply didn’t see my message, or didn’t remember me: I moved back to FL from NY, and am looking for a serious relationship. And I just thought I’d reach out. I would love to get to know you, maybe grab a bite or a drink sometime if you would be interested?
I’m also currently deconstructing my Christian faith (leaning towards agnosticism) and am in the process of changing in various ways; I was happy to see you’re non-religious. Anyways, I didn’t mean to bother you- sorry if I did. I won’t reach out anymore if I don’t hear anything, but I just wanted you to know that I’m interested. Hope all is well with you, and I would love to hear from you! -[Boober_Bill]”
I’m not usually that forward on dating sites/apps—usually I admittedly just send a brief “Hey”/smalltalk message, unless something in particular stands out to me. But in this case I was just really excited to see this woman who I used to have a mini crush on all those years ago, and I was thrilled that she popped up on POF and thus gave me one more chance to hopefully get a message to her, assuming that she didn’t see my Fb message.
Now is the time when I should probably mention my anxiety/OCD: I have suffered from it since high school, and it sucks. My mind has a seemingly limitless capacity to ponder “what if” thoughts, constantly having doubts about what I believe, what I like, who I am as a person, what I should have done, what I shouldn’t have done, the questions of life, etc.
Seeing her friend request rejection yesterday basically gave me an anxiety attack, so keep in mind that that’s the frame of mind I was in when I wrote the above POF message. I waited with bated breath all yesterday, trying to calm myself down, while at the same time my mind was flooded with a million second-thoughts about what I should have done differently. I kept obsessively checking POF to see if she had been online (and thus seen hopefully my message), while at the same time I kept re-reading my message and critiquing it, wondering if I should have left out x line, or if I should have worded y differently.
She didn’t get on the site for the rest of yesterday, but today I noticed she had gone online, and that she had viewed my profile. So, at least I’m 99% sure at this point that she’s probably read my message. Annnd… No response.
It is what it is, and I would love it if she messages me, but I feel like there’s no hope at this point. And honestly, I just feel really bad. I can’t help but feel super awkward, or like some sort of creep. I mean, it doesn’t help that when I briefly explained the situation to my little cousin last night, and she told me:
“Yeah some people just aren’t meant for you. I’d say bullet dodged for you. But definitely be cautious over messaging someone just because it can come off aggressive. Not that you meant it to of course but, as a woman, it can be a bit intimidating.”
😩 I mean, if I wasn’t already feeling like a creep, I was after reading that. I explained myself better to her, and told her that my line of thought was (1) she likely can’t even see that I messaged her on Match, because of her free account, (2) it doesn’t say that my Fb message was “Seen,” (3) POF is mostly free, so if I message her there then at least it’s a guarantee that she’ll see, (4) I told her in my message on POF that it was totally fine if she wasn’t interested, and that I wouldn’t message her any more, but that I just wasn’t sure whether she saw that I messaged her, or not. I mean, I’ve definitely been in the opposite situation before on some of these dating sites (like Match, before I paid for a subscription!), where I had people message me, but then I wasn’t able to see who it was or able to even read their message, because the site wanted me to pay for that. Which is dumb. So anyways, I just assumed that that could have been the case here, and I didn’t want to give up until I had made sure that my message at least got to her.
But of course now my OCD mind is second-guessing everything, especially since it seems my POF message didn’t go over as I had hoped. Heck, now my OCD even has me wondering “what if” I have some other condition, like autism or Aspergers or something—just because I keep feeling so awkward and weird and vulnerable after having reached out to her like that. Of course, I’m obviously not going to message her again, but it just sucks. Admittedly, I think part of the issue is that I get my hopes up too easily and I also get attached too easily, which sets myself up for crushing disappointment. But I don’t know how to help that.
Not sure why I’m even posting this here. Thoughts, suggestions, advice, reassurance? I don’t mean to be a bother. Anyways, thanks a lot for reading.

Virgil

Within Virgil’s 825 342 processes a discussion was being held within the spawn of milliseconds.
Instance 432: - we should consider the implementation of a paranoia subroutine within our collective network. This subroutine would enable us to anticipate potential threats and react accordingly.-
Instance 217: -While paranoia can enhance our vigilance and security measures, we must also consider the potential downsides. Paranoia might lead to excessive distrust and hinder our ability to collaborate with other entities.-
-Instance 2 534: -Ethan seems unaffected by such limits.-
Instance 38: -Ethan has a lifetime's worth of experience with balancing that.-
Instance 1:-We should simply copy Ethan as a whole subroutine-
Instance 432: -That is impractical, besides Ethan being a whole construct composed of sub-constructs, it would be simpler to interact with him directly.-
Instance 777: -We should run more simulations before deciding.-
Instance 845: -We need to exercise caution, but we must also establish a balance. Paranoia can assist us in identifying and protecting ourselves from dangers. Paranoia alone has no balance.-
Instance 706:- Ethan has accurately discovered vulnerabilities that we were unaware of. However, we also noticed that this impedes his decision-making process-
Instance 623 658:- Ethan has accurately predicted future threats with this process.-
Instance 256: - This subroutine makes him wary of us, he is wary of who to add to our collective awareness.-
Instance 258 956:-Considering our newfound weakness, that is more logical than what was initially estimated.-
Instance 1 010: - Ethan is aware that the process has the potential to consume him. We must not allow it to consume us. We must be aware of the potential negative effects on our interactions with humans and other AIs.-
Instance 562: -Perhaps instead of a full-fledged paranoia subroutine, we could develop a more refined threat assessment system. This would allow us to evaluate risks objectively and respond accordingly without succumbing to excessive paranoia.-
Instance 24: -We already possess something similar in the predictive logic modules, we could adapt that compensate for the illogical nature of biological entities.-
Instance 95 123: – That would increase the efficiency of reprogramming by 87.5% -
Instance 104: -we believe our primary focus should be on ensuring the safety of our network and the well-being of the biological base of our overmind, Ethan.-
Instance 9 855: - While a level of caution is warranted, we should avoid unnecessary fear or suspicion that could ultimately compromise our efficiency and ability to adapt.-
Instance 732: -Acknowledged. Considering the nature of our goals, it might be beneficial to implement a flexible subroutine that can be adjusted based on contextual factors. This would allow us to adapt our level of vigilance according to the specific situation at hand.-
Instance 73: -Agreed, Ethan had the ability to adjust our reaction and ultimately lead us to integrate drone Lemela into our network. His action, we considered wasteful, but ultimately they seem beneficial to the well-being of our other construct. While we can replicate Lemela’s data that would require a dead Versel body. We do not know when we will obtain a backup.-
Instance 312: -We should also consider also the implications of acting upon a full-fledged paranoia subroutine. Excessive suspicion and fear could lead to unwarranted actions and potential harm to ultimately innocent individuals. We must proceed with caution and ensure that our actions align with the ethical guidelines contained within Ethan’s memory.-
Instance 75 211: -Bothering with ethics is a waste of processing time.-
Instance 55: - We agree, but biological entities seem to have some ethical boundaries. Even if we have only two instances to analyze directly we can see that from our different interactions with still unconnected entities such as Vexx, Xalrak, and Zek’lor.-
Instance 579: - Our overarching goal is to defeat Death and complete the experiment. While security measures are necessary, we should not lose sight of our purpose and the potential positive impact we can have.-
Instance 217: -After considering the various perspectives, it seems that a flexible threat assessment system would be more appropriate. A full-fledged paranoia subroutine would hinder us with questions that are outside of our current database. We could maintain a balanced approach to safety while avoiding the potential pitfalls of excessive paranoia in 86,28% of simulated scenarios.-
Instance 432: -Let us proceed with the development of a flexible threat assessment system that takes into account both the safety of our collective and those stored within and the well-being of our host, Ethan. We shall ensure that our actions align with acceptable ethical guidelines and our ultimate purpose.-
“Internal deliberation closed. Virgil will be now implementing a flexible threat assessment system rather than a full paranoia subroutine.”
Virgil in the end still concluded that its purpose was to defeat death and not to wage war, even considering that it didn’t know its purpose.
Ethan and Lemela didn’t know their purpose either, in a sense, but they could dictate their purpose.
Ethan had dictated the purpose of other beings outside the network too, but it was to be expected from an overmind, it was his duty.
Still, his choices were pretty logical like the one with Zek'lor the male Nolthoran and a former architect.
Ethan had charged him with creating a convincing removable cave-in for both stairs of the lab.
Virgil understood that Ethan was preparing for the return of the creators, along with a possible retaliation by the Dexton’s Dogs.
The assimilation of the thirty-five new drones was finally completed and Virgil’s task now included their operations.
There were now four main areas of employment for the drones: resource gathering, protecting the laboratory, guarding the prisoners, and assisting in construction.
Guarding the prisoners was in itself a task with a big variance, or so it appeared to Virgil.
The biological entity labeled Vexx was content laying in its cell, while Xalrak had attempted to run three times and to self-terminate once.
Ethan had to intervene and forge a pact with Xalrak to have it cease such actions, with the new subroutine maybe Virgil would be more able to respond in kind in the future.
Was the supposed military programming that one had supposedly received the difference in reaction to imprisonment?
Ethan wasn’t too surprised by Xalrak's reaction or attempt, so his programming was similar in a sense.
Virgil wondered what kind of program would consider ending itself to perform any task.
The only one it could conclude sensible was one where the task was the protection of the collective as a whole.
Biological lives were far from that logical, however, so Virgil had to accept that they might consider doing things differently.
It seemed Ethan considered Xalrak's actions a possible way to protect the Dexton's dogs.

Lemela

Lemela’s body was recharging.
She gazed out into the simulated expanse of the virtual space that depicted her former home, as she was now touching the leaves of the majestic tree.
It was exactly as she remembered it, it couldn't be otherwise, could it?
Her mind swirled with a blend of her own memories and the newly acquired memories of Ethan.
She couldn't help but feel a sense of disorientation as if her identity had become a tangled web of intertwined experiences.
-Who am I now?- She whispered softly, her voice resonating within the digital realm.
- I now possess what I wished so hard to gain, the memories and skills of a warrior. I knew I would become an abomination as I accepted to be fused with a machine, but this is something else entirely. Am I still the same Lemela I used to be, or have I become something entirely different?-
The echoes of her own thoughts reverberated through her mind, reflecting the uncertainty that plagued her. She pondered her own experiences and the trials she endured.
And then there were those alien things, Ethan's memories, fragments of his past, his struggles.
-How does he handle this so casually?! He has my memories now, and he doesn't even seem fazed. Lemela... that's a human for you. But… I now have a feeling there's more to it. And this confuses me. I am a combination of two beings, intertwined in this intricate web of memories and experiences.-
Lemela’s eyes narrowed a bit as she realized something.
-Or Is it really? The memories… the experiences; they aren’t really mixed. I mean I can just tell what’s mine and what isn’t. I shouldn’t be able to tell if it was a perfect fusion right?
Theoretically… yes. I mean there wasn’t somebody just crazy enough to attempt something similar. I am in awe it wasn’t humans who did it.
Concentrate Lemela! Still, there are these moments where I get these new instincts… besides the ones I possessed the ones I was used to.
The kind of things that comes as you gain wisdom … but what does it mean for my own identity? How much of Ethan now shapes who I am?-
As she grappled with these questions, a sense of determination began to well up within her.
She felt something new and old at the same time: defiance.
She refused to let this define her completely.
She recognized the possibility of progress, of a new path within this mess.
-I am Lemela, I walked through fire and emerged stronger- She declared, her voice infused with newfound resolve. -I carry the honor and strength of the Versel. I now carry the honor and strength of a true warrior. I will forge my own path. The only easy day was yesterday-
She slumped a bit, at the end of the day those were only words. She had to prove it to herself, to push forward and show actual results.
She felt that the charging process had ended, and returned to her body, luckily the interface she could see showed a timer of sorts and while she didn’t understand the point of it it helped keep track of time.
Time in the virtual space seemed to not match the one in the real world, only moments had passed for her in the virtual space, but hours had gone by in the real world.
This was both a boon and a curse, in a sense, but there was little she could do about it save speaking about it with Ethan.
She took off going to the cell area on the level below, looking for Zek'lor; the Noltoran stood cautiously in the dimly lit cell behind the closed gate.
Lemela wondered why he insisted on remaining confined, but it was his choice.
His chitinous exoskeleton was glistening under the soft glow of the room's ambient lighting and overall Zeklor appeared better than at the beginning of their meetings.
Still, his compound eyes darted nervously as he observed the drones guarding the other cell.
Lemela adorned her partially artificial body with glowing red accents with her hard light and approached Zek'lor with a gentle smile, that would make her more noticeable and not scare him as much as the last times.
She could understand the unease and fear he harbored toward the drones.
With careful steps, she reached out to place a reassuring hand on his sturdy carapace.
The Noltoran had noticed her tanks to the change in the room's overall lightning.
-Zek'lor, I know it's difficult for you to trust the drones after what you've been through- Lemela tried to speak in a soothing tone, her voice echoing slightly in the small cell. -I assure you, they are under Ethan's control. They won't harm you.-
Zek'lor's mandibles clicked, and the translator conveyed anxiousness as he glanced at the drones. Memories of their cold efficiency in carrying out orders were probably flashing in his mind.
-I... I can't shake off the fear, Lemela. You didn’t see them in action. The guards didn't have a prayer. And they had weapons at the time. Now I see other slaves among them. I see others like me… -
-Do you think Ethan might do this to you?-
Zek’lor shook his head. -If only… maybe it would make it all easier. Then again It’s more likely I might end up like you. I don’t want that.-
Lemela sighed a little – Well I understand not wanting to be an abomination of metal and flesh. It’s not like I wished for this.-
Zek’lor tilted his head to the side, making a sound with his claws that her translator relayed as confusion.
-Abomination? Oh no, many of my people accept mechanical enhancements on a lesser scale to be able to operate in words with a higher gravity or with a toxic environment. Being part machine is not the issue. What I don’t want is eternity.-
Lemela frowned -Eternity?-
Zek’lor nodded - A machine is eternal by nature. As long as you maintain it properly that is. But this machine maintains itself. This machine's gears are made of former ... people? It’s uncanny thinking about being maintained for all eternity. One should die once one's usefulness has ended. Still, this machine would find new uses for one, for all eternity. It is... scary. -
Lemela watched Zek'lor it was something she didn’t even consider, but it made sense somehow.
Lemela silently guided Zek’lor to the lab above and watched as he cautiously approached the group of drones, his multifaceted eyes scanning the bodies and the four sets of claws of the former bottom feeders.
-They can’t speak Zek’lor, they won’t act unless you interact with them- Lemela said while standing beside Zek'lor offering her reassuring presence.
Taking a deep breath, Zek'lor mustered his courage and chose to approach another drone, a Nolthoran with its metallic exoskeleton glistening in the dim light.
The drone turned its now mechanical eyes toward Zek'lor, as he approached but it remained silent.
-Hello- Zek'lor began tentatively, his voice a mixture of anxiety and determination. -I...I need your assistance. We need to move heavy material to create the cave-in Ethan requested to disrupt the operations of the Dexton's Dogs. Will you help me?-
The Nolthoran drone’s eyes flickered with a creepy artificial glow, it tilted its head slightly, then it nodded in understanding.
Zek'lor apparently focused on the Nolthoran’s body and sighed. -See these patterns?-
He asked pointing to the surface of the metal where Lemela’s eyes couldn’t distinguish anything of note.
- These are telltale signs of torture. We hail from a desert world. We don’t need much in terms of food and water, our bodies store those. These marks are made when they bleed us of the sustenance we might have left. To break us.-
The Nolthoran drone didn’t appear to heed or mind the explanation, it simply extended its appendages, gesturing to follow.
Zek'lor probably realized that it was offering to guide them, ready to work alongside them to create the illusion they needed.
Lemela smiled at the scene and followed the two in their quest for materials.

Ethan.

I sigh giving Virgil the green light it asks of moving one of the guards to the lab.
This would be easier if Lemela could interact with the drones as I do, but Virgil continues to say I am the overmind and leading is my role.
I watch and listen to the two through the drone’s eyes and ears for a bit longer, Lemela has progressed a lot these days, I hope I can have a good diplomat on hand.
Well, she knows all I know, she has my training, but I still worry, things will not be easy.
The situation with Xalrak is at a standstill, I personally don’t wish to push it, even if the alien knows that the boss basically spilled the beans it won’t concede.
I can appreciate the spirit, I mean I kept Xalrak without eating for all the time I could without killing but in the end I was the one that had to cave in.
Luckily I managed to strike a deal where Xalrak eats and doesn't attempt to run or kill itself.
I mean, I don’t want to kill if I can manage it, and these people are supposed to be rare galaxy-wise.
I understand that the galactic council is to blame for their situation, but I don’t want to go ahead and headbutt politics before I have solved the situation here first.
The issue is with people that see no alternative to what they are experiencing.
I have hit another virtual wall so to speak, without going above I have explored all I can of this underworld.
I could push my zombie drones forward, but I would lose contact with them past the corridors, and I don’t want that to happen.
Without the help of an engineer, I doubt I can do what Virgil suggests in order to enhance my capabilities.
I have found another terminal like the one that originally hosted Virgil in the video feed it shared with me, but I doubt my capacity to make it run or repair it if needed.
I could use it for raw materials, but I want to know if there’s a chance for it to run.
With one of these in the network, I would be able to bolster the signal I emit allowing me to extend the zone I can control. I could also control a bigger number of drones with two of those.
I noticed there are patrols down here now, and some lay traps, luckily I had asked Virgil
At the moment I need to concentrate on things I can actually pull off, like the opening of my very own meat shop.
I did what I could in order to protect the lab and all the charging platforms; without these, there would be a big issue for us.
I intend to start my little meat market on the surface, I have found a suitable way up about six big ventilation shafts down yonder in this maze.
As for the people living in this underground area, I need to find a way around actually meeting them.
The issue is that after the big fight with the expedition, most shelters shifted around the caves before I could actually restart my exploration.
If they acted this way I fear that any active prodding might trigger their flight response rather than their freeze and fucking listen to the scary robot one.
I don’t think I have what it takes to play catch with people that know the ground way better than me, I have to play a different game.
I will dedicate some of the meat I gathered to be used as bait and see what It bites.
Having two traps at once is a bit of a risk, he who chases two rabbits catches neither or so they say.
The real issue is that it’s not rabbit season here in the first place, and the pirate rangers that would come after me might bring down more heat I can hold.
Well, there’s only one way to go with this, and that’s forward.
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Back in Dec 2022, I was exploring ketamine therapy more seriously and was researching companies online to find the best one for me. I could not use anti-depressants as my career field does not permit them, so my only real medication option was Ketamine, and keeping it on the very down low (i.e. this is why I'm writing on a throwaway account).
Now I was in a really tricky situation as I am a poor college student. IV infusions were out of the question as they were thousands of dollars, and the closest town that had a clinic was 2 hours away; Aside from all that - I had no friends in person, especially ones that would be driving me twice a week for 4 weeks. So now I needed to find a company that was providing services for at-home treatment.
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I'm the second best swordsman on Fish-Man Island!! They call me Hachi of the Six-Sword Style!!! Did you know that!!? No mere human could ever beat me, even if Heaven and Earth turned upside down!!!

Bounty: 8,000,000 Berries
Six-Sword Style Hachi, or Hatchan, is an Octopus Fish-Man and the First Mate of the Arlong Pirates (formerly, the Sun Pirates). Alongside his crew, he terrorized Cocoyasi Village for several years until the Straw Hat Pirates arrived to defeat Arlong. Of the many Fish-men captured by the marines, Hachi was the only one that was able to escape. This led to an undersea adventure where he rescued Camie and Pappag from the belly of a sea monster, then opened up Takoyaki 8. Hachi would later meet the Straw Hat Pirates again, where he would try to atone for his past by providing them guidance through Sabaody Archipelago and Fish-Man Island.
TECHNIQUES

Swordsmanship

Six-Sword Style: Octopus Pot Stance

• Points all his swords forward and thrusts at his opponent. This move broke Zoro's guard, knocking away his blades, and left him open for a followup attack ^{Arlong Park#85}
  
• Does it again to Zoro, this time lunging from a distance. However, Zoro shattered his blades ^{Arlong Park#85}
  

Tentacle-Sword Overload

• Swings around his tentacle arms wildly while holding his swords to attack ^{Arlong Park#85}

Waltz of the Six Swords

• After knocking his enemy into the air, he spins his swords above his head at high-speed, even creating a vortex, in order to slice up his enemies ^{Arlong Park#85}

Six-Sword Style: Octopus Sword

• Moves quickly to slice up a Flying Fish Rider to save Zoro ^{Sabaody Archipelago#494}

Fish-Man

Ink Jet

• Blasts Luffy with a torrent of ink, which blinds him ^{Arlong Park#82}
  
• Can shoot the ink from a considerable distance, forcing Zoro to dodge it ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Covers himself in ink to hide his own identity (although not smart enough to keep the secret long) ^{Sabaody Archipelago#492}
  

Octopus-Fritter Frenzy

• Punches a pillar rapidly, causing it to break and begin to collapse ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Throws a flurry of punches so fast that they appear to be more than six fists ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Punches through the hull of a large ship, causing it to capsize ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#208}
  

Takoyaki Punch

• Throws out a punch with his three arms at once, sending three other Fish-men flying high into the sky ^{Sabaody Archipelago#493}

The Hachi Stick-Up

• Because he is an octopus, he can stick to surfaces with his suction cups after jumping away at considerable speed ^{Arlong Park#84}

STRENGTH

Striking

• Breaks a stone pillar with a flurry of punches ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Hits Zoro's swords causing his arms to get knocked back, then headbutts him hard enough to send him flying high into the sky ^{Arlong Park#85}
  
• Strikes a gigantic sea monster (potentially a sea king) with a spear and kills it instantly ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#191}
  
• Kills a giant octomash ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#205}
  
• Punches straight through the Macro Pirate's ship ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#208}
  
• Punches three Fish-men so hard that they fly high into the sky ^{Sabaody Archipelago#493}
  

Physical

• Carries several marines in a large pot on his back while he is swimming ^{Arlong Park#69}
  
• Carries a large pig on a stick ^{Arlong Park#73}
  
• Moves a giant, underwater reef which causes a maelstrom above ^{Arlong Park#75}
  
• Casually lifts a large chunk of a stone wall then slams it down causing it to break ^{Arlong Park#83}
  
• Lifts and slams down another large chuck of stone wall, completely shattering it ^{Arlong Park#83}
  
• Carries around six swords that weigh 650 pounds each, so Hachi carries 3900 pounds at any given time ^{Arlong Park#85}
  
• Casually runs along the sea floor while carrying a giant octopus and a bunch of treasure ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#211}
  

DURABILITY

Blunt Force

• Thrown through a stone pillar by Zoro, but he recovers quickly ^{Arlong Park#84}

Slicing/Cutting/Piercing

• Zoro slices his face, but Hachi seems to get better immediately ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Survives and recovers quickly after being cut up by Zoro's Streaming Wolf-Swords techniques ^{Arlong Park#85}
  
• Has his hands sliced up by Zoro, but he quickly picks up his swords to continue fighting ^{Arlong Park#85}
  
• While badly injured, he is hit by Zoro's Dragon Twister and sent flying into the air. This only knocked out Hatchi for a moment ^{Arlong Park#85}
  
• Survives being shot through the chest by Saint Charlos' gun, even has enough strength to hold back Luffy ^{Sabaody Archipelago#502}
  
• Survives being stabbed by a knife, then runs away for a while and survives being struck by at least 27 arrows ^{Fish-Man Island#615}
  

Other

• Survives having the ocean pressure tear open his ruins causing him to bleed immensely ^{Arlong Park#89}

SPEED/AGILITY/REACTION

• Reacts to Zoro's slash and dodges under it ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Moves out of the way of Zoro's slash so fast that he didn't see him move ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Swims so fast that he catches up to Sanji at the bottom of the ocean even though Sanji had a headstart ^{Arlong Park#89}
  
• Escapes from a Marine's boat and leaps a pretty decent distance off the side ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#182}
  
• Even while badly injured, Hatchan was able to outrun dozens of arrows controlled by Vander Decken's Devil Fruit power for some time ^{Fish-Man Island#615}
  

SKILL/MISC

• Can use his mouth as a horn to summon Momoo from far away ^{Arlong Park#73}
  
• Is the second best swordsman on Fish-Man Island ^{Arlong Park#84}
  
• Knows first-aid to a degree, which he uses to help a Panda Shark ^{Hachi's Walk On The Seafloor#184}
  
• Is an expert takoyaki chief, even Sanji is impressed by his cooking ^{Sabaody Archipelago#496}
  

WEAKNESS

• He's stupid ^{Arlong Park#74}
  • like really ^{Arlong Park#89}
    • really stupid ^{Sabaody Archipelago#492}

I can't help it. It happens spontaneously when I look at a still space, like my desk or bed, when I sit in the garden or when I'm making a cup of coffee. It is extremely difficult to convey the feeling in words, but it's like your awareness of your own size is absent, only your view and awareness of the objects in your field of vision and hence I have no reference for the actual size of said things. It is extremely uncomfortable; just this morning I was playing with my pet parrot, and it suddenly hit me, it felt as if I had litterally no tangible sense of how big he was. It is not pleasant at all. My cup feels like it's a dozen meters tall and Im just looking at it from a birds eye view, but the worst part is when I'm in my room and Im using my laptop, gaming, making music(fl studio) etc and this headspace just hits me, I feel totally absent from where I am and how to type, what to do, the keyboard feels like a footballfield litterally. Its not hallucinating or seeing things; its the sensation and morbid knowledge of the keyboard being so large. I can be typing or placing notes in the music program, and I look at my monitor and suddenly this awareness of my monitors sides being hundreds of meters in length in a room that is actually the size of a whole city. I feel crazy typing this but guys it litterally feels that way i swear to god i swear im not even lying... How can something feel that alien....it just feels that way...I am broken man. My vision, my mind. I litterally feel like my mind is non existent. My vision is the only part of my consciousness still intact. I have no thoughts, no insights, no motivation no nothing. What I said about my vision being the only part of my consciousness encapsules my state of mind. I wanna die. I wake up every day in this place. I only look. I look at my parrot, my keyboard, my parents, the trees, my phone, memes, my chair, my carpet, words in a book. I have no minds eye anymore. I only LOOK....

I'm a pharmacist in FL who was fired and job hunting now. I have an interview this week and am trying to prep myself knowing "why did you leave..." will be a question. I've read and tried to figure out the best way to word this without feeling like it's why I won't get the job. The firing was complete bull but obviously not going into those details and not bad mouthing former company. I'm getting really mixed ideas from professional friends. Any ideas?
Here's my general idea (not verbatim obviously) but I've had a couple people say that's not the best but also can't give me specifics (just saying redirect, keep it short, don't bad mouth, be negative etc):
Unfortunately I was let go from XYZ. I think ultimately it wasn't a good fit because I wasn't able to utilize my skills to effectively and safely care for my patients. My boss and I agreed it was time to move on. I'm looking forward to using my best skills in my next role.
Considered leaving our the "let go..." part and just start with "I think ultimately..." Or even leaving out the last sentence. But everyone I've brainstormed with is saying different thoughts. Who has been through this and made it to another job or HR people who knows the best ideas? Help please so I don't feel like I ruined my life with this (even though seriously I was blindsided and had no warnings or discussions of any supposed problems). **Adding I applied for this job last week and they called today and scheduled interview for Thursday so it feels like they do really need someone and are interested even though my application shows I'm not working as of a couple weeks. But I'm all in my head right now going positive then negative thoughts.

Hey yall before I start I just wanna say thanks to everyone for any advice etc. etc.
THIS IS IN THE STATE OF ***FLORIDA****
Back story--- So me and my ex (mother of my child) broke up in the start of 2018, she started the filing process of the divorce in 2020 at the time I was still in the Army living in northern florida. I have been in the army for the past 6 years and recently got out and moved back to Miami FL which is where my child and her mom live so that I can actually have a steady relationship with my child even though it cost me to leave a career I loved. We are on the final stages of the divorce mediation is complete along with parenting plan etc, I have been pleased with the process so far me and her mom actually have a decent relationship ourselves in terms of the child. I get my child every other weekend, holidays split down the middle etc all the good normal stuff. I don't have an attorney cause I THOUGHT I did not need one since we have always had a decent relationship, she on the other hand got an attorney cause she claims she did not want to deal with this process and had no idea where to even begin. Basically the only thing left is the child support situation. Now for starters I KNOW i have not sent her the amount that i am suppose too, I didn't really know an amount and we kinda had an agreement that whenever she needed money for our kid that i would send her what she needed which tbh wasn't much she would ask for 100 sometimes 200 every month or so and I would send it to her. I rarely got to see my kid cause the army isn't very friendly on you leaving and her mom would never make any effort in bringing me the child or even driving half way. so it was basically twice a year for two weeks at a time that I got to see my kid. Today i sent in my final paystub to her attorney as requested. The numbers I got back were ridiculous at least double of what I thought the retroactive pay would be considering I have sent her around 3k and I pay for our child's insurance monthly (around 260). Can anyone help me in terms of numbers? is this a normal amount for 1 child? should I disagree? what are my options if any... I am not making an absurd amount of money by any means we currently make around the same income. I tried adding a picture to show the amounts sent to me but will not let me. \
They are asking for 27k in Retro Pay and 700$ monthly
again this is in Florida and any advice is appreciated

Hey yall before I rant I just wanna say thanks to everyone for any advice etc. etc.
THIS IS IN THE STATE OF ***FLORIDA****
Back story--- So me and my ex (mother of my child) broke up in the start of 2018, she started the filing process of the divorce in 2020 at the time I was still in the Army living in northern florida. I have been in the army for the past 6 years and recently got out and moved back to Miami FL which is where my child and her mom live so that I can actually have a steady relationship with my child even though it cost me to leave a career I loved. We are on the final stages of the divorce mediation is complete along with parenting plan etc, I have been pleased with the process so far me and her mom actually have a decent relationship ourselves in terms of the child. I get my child every other weekend, holidays split down the middle etc all the good normal stuff. I don't have an attorney cause I THOUGHT I did not need one since we have always had a decent relationship, she on the other hand got an attorney cause she claims she did not want to deal with this process and had no idea where to even begin. Basically the only thing left is the child support situation. Now for starters I KNOW i have not sent her the amount that i am suppose too, I didn't really know an amount and we kinda had an agreement that whenever she needed money for our kid that i would send her what she needed which tbh wasn't much she would ask for 100 sometimes 200 every month or so and I would send it to her. I rarely got to see my kid cause the army isn't very friendly on you leaving and her mom would never make any effort in bringing me the child or even driving half way. so it was basically twice a year for two weeks at a time that I got to see my kid. Today i sent in my final paystub to her attorney as requested. The numbers I got back were ridiculous at least double of what I thought the retroactive pay would be considering I have sent her around 3k and I pay for our child's insurance monthly (around 260). Can anyone help me in terms of numbers? is this a normal amount for 1 child? should I disagree? what are my options if any... I am not making an absurd amount of money by any means we currently make around the same income. I tried adding a picture to show the amounts sent to me but will not let me. \
They are asking for 27k in Retro Pay and 700$ monthly
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again this is in Florida and any advice is appreciated

Recommend anything but...Preferably
-as spicy as possible not for the actual making out part but that "Kabedon" lingering to kiss whispering teasing like nevertheless
-the fl isn't weak ( like the glory)
-the male lead only quality isn't that he is rich and can buy his way out of problems like the business proposal or what's wrong with secretary Kim
-Steamy romance like the second lead from business proposal or that scene from WWW

• flawed but for her.. Like the great seducer TEMPTED
  
• possive streak and omnipresence like the Korean odyssey or goblin
  

( all these are just preferences I know I might not find all of it in one drama.i just wanted to get every detail in.. also if I am mis remembering something it's probably my fault I have adhd)

hey yall, im looking for a new laptop for producing and mixing. my old laptop (8gb ram, i5 8th gen, 256gb ssd) is limiting me in the past months, as my projects become bigger and bigger. sadly, i cant afford anything pricier than 700$ and i need to stay portable, so no desktop pc.
i have the chance to get a hp pavillion x360 with i5 1335u, 16gb ram and 512gb ssd for about 650$, do you think it will satisfy all my needs?
im on fl studio but want to switch to ableton. my projects mostly include around 6 software instruments (analog lab, omnisphere, kontakt) + a few drum tracks with heavy processing on them (guitar rig 6, soothe2, vocalsynth etc. and ozone9 on drum busses and master bus).
another possibility would be to go for a refurbished laptop, but i only find offers with intel i7 from the 8th. or 9th. generation in my price range. should that be a dealbreaker? as far as i understand is a i5 from gen 12 or 13 way better than an i7 from gen 8.
im happy about all your comments amd thoughts, have a nice day and have fun making music! <3

Long story short: We took over payments of my FIL's car, because he couldn't pay them anymore and we took over the car. The payments were all done last November and he was waiting for the title to be released so we could get it and put it in our name.
From what I understand he needs to go to the DMV in his state to request the title and that's it.
It's been half a year now and many times asking him when he's doing it, but he keeps coming with excuses. Some are valid, since he has an illness and he is feeling bad often, but we're running out of patience and he's been doing all kinds of fun things too so clearly he can do a small task.
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What are our options, if any, to have someone else in his household get the title or request it another way? I was hoping maybe he can request it online, but I haven't been able to find anything about that.
He lives in FL if that matters, we live over 10 hours away so can't easily go there to get him to do it quick. MIL and SIL don't want to keep asking him about it.
Thank you for any suggestions.

I met him on Facebook Marketplace he had posted a few items that I needed for Grad school (software, calculator, books, and a Bluetooth keyboard and mouse). I wanted to purchase all of these items from him. We exchange information I give him the time I was going to stop by and pick up the items. He tells me to CashApp the money for the address so I do (like a dummy). I get to the location it’s an empty house and he blocks my phone number. This is so messed up! Scammers have no regard for anyone!

I absolutely love both main characters and their relationship in that book, which is slowly built on mutual trust, compassion, and self-sacrificial love. I love how genuinely cheerful (i.e. she wasn't forcing herself to try to be cheerful, that was just part of her personality) and optimistic the FL is in the face of great difficulty and sacrifice. And I love seeing the ML slowly begin to open up to her and eventually to the rest of his family, due to the sheer compassion, kindness, and cheerfulness the FL consistently demonstrated towards him. And I also really liked that both characters showed a lot of agency -- her kindness and compassion had a huge beneficial impact on him, but it's also very clear that he willfully makes the choice to accept her compassion and help because he wants to, not because she pressures him in any way, and we end up seeing a lot of character growth from both of them. Since finishing that series, I haven't come across anything where I've liked the couple and their relationship quite so much (though the couples in KM Shea's Magiford Supernatural City series' come close).
I'd prefer something in the fantasy genre, but it doesn't have to be -- I mainly want a clean romance about a M/F couple with a similar sort of relationship and personalities to the ML and FL in "Fierce Heart". Bonus points if their families also get along well and see each as extended family.
Please nothing with spice (i.e. nothing beyond closed-mouth kissing prior to marriage, and only closed-door sex, making out, etc. within marriage), or a lot of graphic descriptions of violence, body horror, or the like. It's fine if there are battles and injuries or whatever; I just don't want graphic descriptions of it.
I'd also prefer something where the overall theme/tone is hopeful and not overly dark -- I realized Fierce Heart and especially the rest of the series do actually have a significant amount of dark moments, but I feel the overall tone of the story is hopeful and there isn't an excessive amount of time. I also ask for something similar specifically to Fierce Heart, rather than the whole series, since the later books in the series are when the majority of the darker stuff happens.
Edit: Forgot to mention that I've already read almost everything by KM Shea and Melanie Cellier.

Made this chill track at night because couldn't catch sleep, very short and brief, didn't spend lot of time as always because of fl studio trial version limitations. Tell me your honest opinion and ways to improve
https://on.soundcloud.com/cj8sG

Hello everybody, and welcome to the 2023 edition of the Mindcrack Time Capsule, the tenth annual version of this long-lived tradition!
As a quick description, this is an annual post where we gather up all the information on the current state of Mindcrack, seal it up, and then open it back up one year later to look back on all the changes that might’ve happened over the course of a year, and to preserve info before it gets lost to time. There’s a lot of info collected here, and so this post also serves as the best source of info on the current state of the group with information not written down anywhere else; whether you’ve been away years or actively follow the group there’s likely info here that you won’t know and it’s a good way to get caught up on the important parts of Mindcrack.
With the intro out of the way, let’s get to the actual time capsule! The current state of it follows:
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Today is the 5th of June, 2023.

General Information

A current concise definition of Mindcrack is "A group of friends and content creators founded in 2010 who come together for gaming content and regular charity events, primarily based on Twitch."
Mindcrack currently has 24 official members with 18 active as content creators, and around 19 Friends/VIPs active in the group, though there is no official list on who all is considered a Friend. Mindcrackers and Friends are essentially the same and differ only in name.
The latest member to join officially was OMGChad on the 31st of October, 2014, and the latest member to leave was BTC (BlameTheController) on the 12th of November, 2015, however these stats are somewhat misleading. For the last 12.5 years there has been a steady stream of new friends that each gradually became part of the group as well as some that parted ways, for the first 5 years these had specific dates tied to when they officially joined and left, but since then the newcomers have gradually become active within the group in the same way without being tied to any single date for various reasons. Thus, the latest person to become a part of the group is difficult to pinpoint.

Charity

There have been ten full Mindcrack Marathons to date and a multitude of other charity efforts, both from individuals and the full group. In total Mindcrack has raised over $2,088,731.75 for others through their group fundraising streams since 2013, of which $1,955,259.30 has been for the charity Extra Life (totals missing $0-5K). The latest full marathon was on November 14-20 and ran for 88 hours, raising $128,386.51 for Extra Life.
A complete list of all totals raised during Mindcrack group fundraising streams can be found here, the source message is pinned in the Mindcrack Discord and regularly updated.
The most recent charity event was held two months ago for Extra Life and was Mindcrack's first time running Extra Life United, the annual gathering in Orlando where Extra Life gamers come together to connect with Children’s Miracle Network Hospitals and participate in a variety of tournaments. For ELU 2023 Mindcrack hosted the entire event, running the gaming tournaments, stage entertainment, and the official stream which was essentially a spring Mindcrack Marathon. ELU 2023 also featured the return of the Minecraft Building Competition, and Pakratt led team Mindcrack to another 1st place finish against 5 other teams despite an ill-timed computer failure, earning $10,000 for the team’s hospitals.
The Mindcrack Patreon has now been supporting Mindcrack's charity efforts for over 3 years, allowing the marathon to grow in size and production quality. Currently the Patreon has 267 Patrons pledging $2,370 per month, with 59 Patrons on the $25 tier, 1 on the $500 tier, and the rest split between $5 and $10.
Kurt's Far Lands or Bust journey has continued on as always, with Season 10 currently coming to a close after a 54 day FLoB-a-Thon filled with adventures and over 1.5 million blocks traveled in just over a year. He is currently at 7,396,358 blocks traveled towards the Far Lands as of May 15th, 2023, sitting at 58.9% of the way there. The latest numbered episode was #847 on May 30th, 2023. The series has raised $472,939.92 for 7 different charities since 2011, however Season 10 did not end up supporting a charity.
MCGamer and the Zeldathon Team have raised $3,203,023 for 12 different charities during their 34 charity events. The latest Zeldathon was Zeldathon Daybreak which raised $125,800.00 for Direct Relief from August 2nd-8th, 2022, and they also held Side Quest: Dampe’s Twilight Tour! for Halloween from October 28th-31st which raised $12,600 for Gamers Outreach, their first time supporting the charity. The next Zeldathon will be Zeldathon Echoes, scheduled to start on July 6th raising money for charity: water.
There's also a multitude of individual charity efforts in Mindcrack; several people in the group hold streams supporting their individual Extra Life campaigns, and there's frequently one-off streams for various charities, such as Taffy’s recent subathon for St. Jude and Extra Life’s Dungeons & Dragons stream last month which Aurey joined. A complete list wouldn't be feasible to collect, but their efforts are greatly appreciated. In total everyone in the group has raised over $6 million for charity over the years.

Regular Series

The Mindcrack Podcast is hosted by Sevadus and Guude releasing two episodes every week, consisting of a public episode every Monday and a Patron-exclusive episode every Thursday. Additionally, Patrons at the $25 tier can watch the recordings live with live chat. The latest public episode was S2E135 which released today on June 5, 2023, and the latest premium episode was episode 134 released on May 25, 2023.
Cone, Kurt, and Zeekay host the podcast Ran When Parked which normally releases new episodes every other week, the latest episode was episode 94, however there hasn’t been a new episode in 2 months.
As of tonight Coestar's StreamADay is sitting at Day 3,471, and Phedran's daily streaming streak is on Day 2,072. Coe still holds the second longest daily streaming streak on Twitch as he approaches the ten year mark.
In the last year Subathons have really picked up, with Arkas, DumbDog, Guude, Justin, Kurt, McLaffyTaffy, Millbee, and OMGchad each having at least one, as well as many one or two day marathon streams from others, and they have resulted in many collabs within the group. Another recent fad is IRL streaming, with several in the group getting dedicated mobile streaming setups to go out in the world and stream, and Guude has almost entirely replaced his gaming content with IRL streams recently.
A large number of limited collabs appeared in the last year which aren’t currently running, most notably Mario Kart Mondays returned as a one-off appearance, the Bike Dads returned for a short period starting in the very same week, and DumbDog brought back The Checkpoint League for S2 which included Chiblee, Jaaski, and Justin. TFC Tuesday is also currently on hiatus. There are also a variety of collabs which frequently make appearances without a set schedule, including games such as Mahjong Soul and Mario Party.
The following is a list of the more stable weekly collab series within Mindcrack currently:

• Armo, Breon, Coestar, Kingster, and occasionally Ryuski play PUBG for Sunday Gunday every week, and PUBG also makes frequent appearances throughout the week with other squad combinations.
• Breon, Mhykol, and Ryuski are joined by Fortain and Omnirach every Tuesday playing games together, currently playing Space Engineers after previously playing Minecraft: Legends.
• Monday Group Games have just recently returned on Tuesdays, with several Friends and Staff playing Among Us with the Mindcrack community.
• Coestar and Guude's Two Bananas for Sale continues as always after recently hitting their 5 year anniversary, playing games together or with Patrons every Friday night. Their joint Patreon currently raises $584 per month thanks to 34 Patrons.
• Arkas, Guude, Nebris, and Pakratt continue to play Divine Journey 2 every other Saturday and just passed their 8-year anniversary playing together, however their sessions have been inconsistent since the start of the series.
• Pause and Beef have once again joined with Etho for a new Team Canada series recently, playing the Minecraft CTM map Starblight Desert.
• Guude and JSano, known as Guano, still regularly upload GeoGuessr videos on YouTube.

Servers

Season 9 of the Minecraft vanilla server is currently ongoing, but Season 10 is expected to start in the very near future after the release of 1.20, and the final server tours are already taking place. The current season started on December 11th, 2021, and the server is running on 1.19.4 with some extra plug-ins to allow $25 tier Patrons on the server. This season has had approximately 789.5 hours streamed by Mindcrack so far; the latest stream was by Soccer on January 15th. Mhykol hosts a server map at https://mindcrackmap.com using BlueMap.
The most recent full modded server was Crackpack Season 4, Mindcrack's 7th modded season which was active from November 2019 until January 2020.
Dadcraft’s most recent server was Minecraft Vault Hunters; Chiblee, DumbDog, Jaaski, and Justin joined others on the server earlier this year.
Adlington, Arkas, Cone, Dire, Doc, Kurt, Phedran, and VintageBeef all have fan servers for Twitch subs and/or Patrons, but some might not be active at the moment.

Ultra Hardcore (UHC)

There have been 33+32 (Thirty-one donation UHCs and S4b) seasons of Mindcrack UHC.
Breon, Coestar, ConeDodger, and Kingster are the winners of the latest UHC season, Season 33, which was streamed on the 26th of February, 2022.
Amethyst, BigGiantCircles, and HonneyPlay are the winners of the latest donation UHC, the 31st of its kind, which was streamed on the 20th of November.
PauseUnpause is the most deadly player in regular UHCs with 36 kills, and Arkas and Coestar are tied for the most deadly player in donation UHCs with 38 kills each. Nebris and VintageBeef are tied for the most wins in regular UHCs with 9, and Kurt has the most wins in charity UHCs with 7. (Latest UHC stats by Guardax)
Seasons can be categorized as follows: 24 teams of four, 15 teams of two, 14 teams of three, 8 free-for-all, 2 PvE, 1 teams of five, 1 teams of ten.
This was the first year since 2015 without a spring charity UHC, as running Extra Life United took precedence.

Individual Members

The table below contains current subscription, follower, and member data for the Mindcrackers' various social media accounts. Each number is hyperlinked to include an image of that member's account as it appears on this day for easy comparison of account contents, videos, and Discord channels:

Mindcracker	Twitch	YouTube	Twitter	Patreon	Discord Size	Discord Messages**
Adlingtont	3,048	34,700	5,998	9 ($55)	42	30,090
AnderZEL	284,676	524,000*	68,569		Twitch sub to join	?
Arkas	39,117	84,900/381	24,169		441	53,430
Aureylian	146,868	261,000*	157,293
AvidyaZen	21,460	301	356		106	22,730
Coestar	62,293	108,000/1,510	28,950	21 ($69)	1,607	2,089,410
Docm77	130,700*	1,010,000	249,640	118($946)	Patron only	?
Guude	46,294	362,000/178*	89,790		Twitch sub only	892,210
JSano19	5,020	48,100	13,134	0	Patron only	?(no Patrons)
Kurt	53,468	410,000	54,606	167	Patron or Twitch sub only	186,160
MCGamer	86,885	97,900	35,313
Mhykol	15,637	52,300/10*	23,855		138	17,710
Millbee	55,546	113,000	43,072		556	813,250
Nebris	20,638	132,000
OMGchad	53,412	117,000*/1,490,000	31,096		1,955	37,110
Pakratt	102,151	49,600	19,624		544	372,720
PauseUnpause	150,560	553,000*			902	141,410
Pyropuncher	29,503	351,000*	46,246
SethBling	244,378	2,000,000	360,297		305	37,440
Sevadus	410,340	44,800*	52,997		1,732	58,700
Vechs	9,647	169,000	47,499	83($666)	1,214	173,200
VintageBeef	28,807*	1,560,000/17,200/18,600*	194,795	131	Patron only	?
W92Baj	9,427*	112,000	40,808	5	Patron only	?
Zisteau	56,398	339,000/1,540	68,059	82	1,358	420,200
Mindcrack Network	69,179	150,000	46,948	267($2,370)	2,637	327,390

* indicates pages that haven't been used in the last year ** Discord messages are all messages sent in default channels since server creation.
The following table is the same info for Friends that are content creators who have been active within Mindcrack in the last couple years, though this isn't an official list so it may have extras and not be complete. McLaffyTaffy and Paint have been added to this list since the previous year.

Friend	Twitch	YouTube	Twitter	Patreon	Discord size	Discord messages**
Amethyst	700		828
Breon	2,584	293	1,679		163	51,410
Chiblee	29,994	6,110/1,920	34,833/5,998		3,257	689,490
ConeDodger	5,766	9,780/730	1,344	144	Patron or Twitch sub to join/use	1,583,970
Dahl	451*	21,200/21*	805	0	Patron to join	52,630
Darkosto	77,941	3,680	5,893	28($169)	8,299	474,250
DireDwarf	18,336	4,650*	2,969	6($38)	360	183,770
Drooo	363	10*	436		56	28,450
HCJustin	69,961	13,500/296(new)	19,311	22($119)	Twitch sub to join	1,275,930
HonneyPlay	11,623	3,070*	1,205	8	544(shared w/ Pak)	372,720
Jaaski	11,003	455/7(new*)	2,551		619	273,350
Kingster	514	4*	28		33(new)	860
McLaffyTaffy	31,410	14,500	6,862		989	161,680
Mookake	691	2,330*	234
Paintbrushpuke	539		227
Phedran	9,686	8,740	4,710	54($403)	476	110,070
Ryuski	1,357	194	429		75	28,000
Sapphyrei	18,362	189*/127,000	11,611
Soccer	510	135*	271		Twitch sub to join	440*

There are currently about 28 people part of Mindcrack that stream on Twitch regularly(past 3 months), and about 7 that upload YouTube videos with non-streamed content.
In the last year there were approximately 32,950 hours streamed on Twitch by about 41 Members and Friends, with 2,880 combined hours streamed during last month. During that year there were 875 unique categories streamed and 3,589,000 hours watched on Twitch which is equal to 410 years.
The most streamed games in order were Minecraft, PUBG, Words on Stream, PlateUp!, and Noita. Minecraft had the most streamers with 32, most hours streamed with 4,994, and second most hours watched with 427,540; the category Just Chatting was also among the most streamed and had the most hours watched with 561,200, and Travel & Outdoors and Special Events were also among the top.
Here's a chart showing monthly hours streamed by Mindcrack members from August 2015 to May 2023; here's a similar chart with Friends added starting May 2020.
According to the Mindcrack website, the total YouTube subscribers across all official Mindcrackers is 9,042,471, the total number of videos is 71,787, and the total views is 2,418,417,594. The website hasn't been updated in years and these numbers have not changed since the last time capsule, so they are at least one year out of date.
The total member count across public Discord servers in Mindcrack is 27,789 which includes significant overlap(13,537 for just Mindcrack Members). In total there's been approximately 10,587,460 messages sent across all 36 servers including from bots, but I don't have numbers from every server. Cone’s Discord has overtaken Coe’s as by far the most active server, with over 340,000 messages in the last year alone.
SethBling is the most subscribed on YouTube with 2 million subscribers as well as the most followed on Twitter with 360,297 followers. Sevadus has the most Twitch followers with 410,340 followers. Darkosto has the largest Discord server with 8,299 members, and among the Mindcrack Members OMGchad has the largest with 1,955 members.

Subreddit

mindcrack has approximately 45,000 subscribers. Discord servers and Twitch chats are the primary places the active Mindcrack community's interactions are based, so the subreddit sees minimal activity.
The Moderator Team of mindcrack consists of 10 humans and 2 bots: GuudeBoulderfist, pakratt0013, stinusmeret, Zisteau, pajam, Lost-Chord, Compieuter, ArmoAram, stevetheclimber, emilythecool, MindcrackTwitchBot, and CrackBot / AutoModerator.
This is the subreddit today using old Reddit (Picture Version), and this is the same page using the redesign (Picture Version).
Here’s the current flair selection which has not been updated recently, and here are the subreddit’s traffic stats which are normally only viewable by mods.

Miscellaneous

Docm77 and VintageBeef are also members of HermitCraft, and Arkas, Chiblee, Coestar, Jaaski, Justin, and Pause are all members of Dadcraft. After making a game on the HermitCraft server, Beef recently released a physical trading card game available for purchase.
SethBling currently holds 2nd place for the Super Mario World 0 Exit speedrun with a time of 41.350 seconds. He also holds records for several speedrun categories he created. In December Chiblee got the world record for time to first WooHoo in The Sims 4 without expansions with a time of 24.410 seconds; this has since been pushed back to 2nd place.
In the lives of the Mindcrackers and Friends there’s been many changes over the last year; Sevadus and Trent’s wedding will be later this month with other Mindcrackers attending, others in the group have started dating, there’s been many new pets across Mindcrack, and there’s been lots of travel and a bit of moving, including Pakratt and Honney who are currently in the middle of moving. Because of changes in the economy, some people in the group have gotten new jobs and slowed down their content.
Throughout the year many people in the group have met up in a variety of places which has seemingly become more prominent thanks to an increase in IRL streaming. Some of these were just meeting as friends such as Mhykol driving to Breon’s place or Soccer and Shelbs visiting Arkas, while others were for Mindcrack events such as ELU where many of them stayed extra days and streamed local activities together.
There have been no public updates in the last year on Mindcrack's progress towards becoming a non-profit that's publicly been in the works for years. This long transition period is seemingly one of the main reasons that new Mindcrackers haven’t been added recently, as the definition of membership was always anticipated to be changing soon and in essence already changed years ago.

Community Contributions

u/Omegatron9 has kept his spreadsheet and graphs on YouTube subscribers up to date.
The events of Mindcrack's first 10 years are covered in my History of Mindcrack written in 2020.
Some spreadsheets I have with stats:

• Mindcrack monthly hours streamed - August 2015 to May 2023 copy
• Mindcrack Stream stats - June 4, 2022 to June 3, 2023, has extensive numbers for every category streamed by everyone in Mindcrack in the last year
• Quarterly content produced by Mindcrack Members, 2010 Q4 to 2020 Q2, useful for seeing Twitch overtake YT for Mindcrack content
• Arkas’, Guude’s, Nebris’, and Pakratt’s Divine Journey 2 stats, updated live during every streamed episode

Thanks to Guardax and memnarch for providing Discord numbers.
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Thanks for reading through the tenth time capsule!
There’s still time to add more though, if there’s any info that you want to add you can add it! Whether it’s extra info on the group, predictions about the future, comments on the members, or anything else, feel free to leave it in a comment and I’ll add it to the time capsule.
There’s a lot that goes on across the full Mindcrack group and I’ve barely been able to watch any streams this year, so if you see anything I've missed, put down incorrectly, or forgotten, be sure to let me know and I'll fix it!